Thank you. It doesn't really seem real still. I have so many questions about what happened because I lost him so fast. He was there moving and kicking and 3 hrs later gone. I fought very hard to carry him to 36 weeks which was going to be when he was delivered because he had a birth defect that needed to be repaired but all my efforts fell short, and I feel the guilt everyday for not going in the night before to be checked because I had felt the difference the days prior to loosing him and I wonder if they could have saved him.
Miscarried August 25,2013
My two year old son prayers for him/her every night we told him his lil brother/sister went to heaven he said its a Star... ;)
So we call our Angel baby Star ;)) will forever be my third child no matter on earth or in heaven.. I love my star.. To precious for earth just right for heaven <3
Miss my little one every day. Wish I could get it back! Need to figure out how to stop crying on a daily basis.
Quoting Sophia Beckham:" My lucky charm was born in 26 Feb, 2012 and now she is 1 year 5 months old. I love her too much and her name is Haley. My cutie pie."
This is for people that have lost their children
I feel the same way. I was due 4/13/14. I started bleeding and cramping on Friday. I had already found out last Wednesday that there was no heartbeat. So I had a D & C on 9/14/13. This was my first pregnancy after 4 years of TTC and my first round of IVF. We decided to name the baby Faith. I ordered a garden rock that says Faith 9/14/13 our little angel.
Quoting Krystal Gilbert:
I'm so sorry for each and everyone one of ya'll loss... I still can't get over the loss of my lil girl and I'm thinking I need a support group.. Does anyone know how to start a thread or a topic... I'm thinking bout starting a topic and it will be for mothers like us that need a support group to grieve better... Nobody understands what I'm going thru and they expect me to just wake up one day and be happy again... So I thought of making a support group to help myself and us all.. O and my angel birthday is July 31 2013... My Kerri Leonor John left me On that day I was only 17 weeks...
I think you just start a thread. I'll join if I see it.
My first little one is gone. Though we never found out what I was to have, or how far along I was, the gender we chose for the baby was a little girl. Her estimated due date was Feb 10th, 2013. Her name would have been Amani Milady.
I am now pregnant again, with our second little one. I am 35 weeks along and she's looking good. This new baby will also be a girl, with the name Maddison Lee-Ann. She is due Dec 10th, 2013. Exactly two months before her sister would've turned one years old.
I think, and dream, about you, Amani everyday. I miss you so very much; it gets harder everyday to come to terms with the fact that you're not here when I wake. I don't know what you'd look like, but I'm sure you would have been beautiful. Daddy and Mommy celebrate your would-be birthday, you know. This year, and from now on, your little sister will be joining in remembering you on your special day. I wish you were here so that you could be a big sister to Maddie, but everything happens for a reason, I guess. I love you so very much, Amani. Never doubt, or forget, that. Daddy and I both love and miss you very much...
On a note to other mothers with angel babies...Is it strange that I feel mixed emotions about Maddsion (our second baby) because of the loss of Amani? For example, I'll be dreaming and the baby I've imagined as Maddie turns into the baby I imagine Amani would have been and in my dream, everything keeps going like nothing's changed. I wake up thinking 'Amani :)' before I remember that Amani is gone, gone forever, and Maddie is inside me; not Amani. It breaks my heart every time. I lay in bed crying and talking to them both (Maddie and Amani) every time I wake up. Calling Maddison 'Amani' makes me feel so guilty, like I'm betraying Maddison. Please, did anyone else go though something like this? I feel like I'm going crazy because of it.