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lolajessup 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Beaverton, Michigan 44070 posts
20th Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Will☮Creedence:</b>" I'm having a bad day today :( Most days are good ones, but today I'm just really depressed. We're just ... [snip!] ... like I've been so good for the last 3 weeks but I'm at the end of my chain and idk how I'll get through 3 more never mind 6..."</blockquote>




I'm so sorry. We're in the same boat sweetie so if you need to vent I am here and totally understand. I know it's hard to see him have good and bad days. I saw a lot of stressed parents in the nicu :( I was one sometimes myself. All the things you described with work and money and daycare are all things we've had to endure as well. I expected to be working still right now. So we're definitely struggling. Sam has also made comments about needing a weekend job. Unfortunately nobody will hire him cause he's overqualified for pt jobs and he applies everyday for jobs in his field. We desperately need to turn our taxes in. And we need my school refund check. We are getting close to being behind in our bills. Next month we probably will be for sure. So I know the financial struggles of all this :( I wish we lived closer so I could help out :(

lolajessup 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Beaverton, Michigan 44070 posts
20th Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Love Wedge +2:</b>" Does anyone ever feel weird when someone they know passes how long you were pregnant for? I had my son ... [snip!] ... but I feel odd. It doesn't make any sense to me. I never felt that way when I had my daughter, at 36.6, so why with my son?"</blockquote>



Well I have PTSD so I've been crying just seeing pregnant women. I should still be preg right now. I would have been due in 5 days :( it breaks my heart. I feel robbed of the perfect preg and I hate seeing others get to experience it :( maybe I'm selfish. Idk. But it still makes me sad. I have counseling again tomorrow so I'm gonna get that off my chest.

Amber {Dylan's momma} 1 child; Lodi, Ohio 1976 posts
21st Feb '13

No range made today. so who
knows when we'll go home

lolajessup 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Beaverton, Michigan 44070 posts
21st Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dylan Jo's mommy:</b>" No range made today. so who knows when we'll go home"</blockquote>




:( did u ask about it? I found it helpful in the nicu to really stand up for myself and my dd and my wishes. Their protocol was to immediately take 35 weekers to nicu. Well because of my stubbornness they decided since she was fine they'd let her stay (but then we had the stupid blood sugar issues :(). And the nurse kept pushing for them to add more MLs to her ng tube and I stuck up for myself and got them to stop using it altogether. Sometimes you just have to push and put the ideas out there and not wait for them to offer.

Amber {Dylan's momma} 1 child; Lodi, Ohio 1976 posts
21st Feb '13
Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Dylan Jo's mommy:</b>" No range made today. so who knows when ... [snip!] ... them to stop using it altogether. Sometimes you just have to push and put the ideas out there and not wait for them to offer."


she only took 20mls po i guess. he doesnt feel shes ready. i guess babies of diabetics dont like to eat. im gonna talk to them in rounds tomorrow see if its more than prematurity

greenmamabecky☮ TTC since Jul 2013; 18 kids; Enfield, Connecticut 20987 posts
21st Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting lolajessup:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Love Wedge +2:</b>" Does anyone ever feel weird when someone ... [snip!] ... it :( maybe I'm selfish. Idk. But it still makes me sad. I have counseling again tomorrow so I'm gonna get that off my chest."</blockquote>




Yep. I want to be pregnant again. Like GET pregnant again. I have baby fever bad but I know it's because of everything I'm going through and not because I need another baby right now.
I want him back inside me, I want to feel all the strong end of pregnncy kicks and movements and get big and huge and eat a ton of food and just enjoy growing a baby inside me. The few hours a day I get to hold him aren't enough. I need him home with me to fill the void.
I know at least some of the girls in my due date thread are in some way jealous because I've already had him and they're still pregnant but I am sooooo jealous of them. Everything they complain about, I wish I could be experiencing.
I'm just glad they're all around 31-35 weeks now and they've all made it further than me. I know its a huge relief for them too, seeing that although he has some small problems Creedence is ok and that means their babies would be too if anything happened and they had to deliver.

lolajessup 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Beaverton, Michigan 44070 posts
21st Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Will☮Creedence:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting lolajessup:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Love Wedge ... [snip!] ... has some small problems Creedence is ok and that means their babies would be too if anything happened and they had to deliver."</blockquote>



Omg my dd group was prolly sick of me haha. There was virtually no complaining until 38 weeks in there cause I was always making them feel guilty for not enjoying themselves haha. I also wanted to be big and uncomfortable. I would have been ok going overdue. Plus the csection didn't help any cause it was the furthest from what I ever wanted. And I know you had similar feelings about missing out on your hb experience. It's like now that I had to have a Csection idk if I'll ever have the opportunity to labor and delivery naturally again :( which breaks my heart. Give yourself time though to emotionally heal and get into a clearer mental state before making an emotional decision to have another baby. If you don't let your body heal it could give out on you during the preg and either result in m/c, stillbirth, or another preemie. :( have u considered counseling too? It's helped me so far kind of get my thoughts out and together and it's only been 2 sessions. It helps to know what I'm feeling is normal and sorting out what the real problems are and what will and won't fix it.

Love Wedge +2 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Waterloo, Ontario 44310 posts
21st Feb '13

I just wanna share some exciting news.



Bub has been hitting some big things today.



He rolled from his tummy to back 3 times. This morning he found his feet and later on in the day started rolling to his side to grab a toy. I got the biggest laugh from him, too.



He's so amazing <3

lolajessup 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Beaverton, Michigan 44070 posts
21st Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Love Wedge +2:</b>" I just wanna share some exciting news. Bub has been hitting some big things today. He rolled from his ... [snip!] ... later on in the day started rolling to his side to grab a toy. I got the biggest laugh from him, too. He's so amazing <3"</blockquote>




Awwwe when did u have him?

Love Wedge +2 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Waterloo, Ontario 44310 posts
21st Feb '13
Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Love Wedge +2:</b>" I just wanna share some exciting news. ... [snip!] ... to grab a toy. I got the biggest laugh from him, too. He's so amazing <3"</blockquote> Awwwe when did u have him?"

35.2 weeks. He's 5 months, 4 months adjusted.



Oh, I almost forgot. I was giving him a bath and he was so excited! He was kicking his legs and moving his arms around. I bet it won't be long before he's splashing the water everywhere :D

lolajessup 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Beaverton, Michigan 44070 posts
21st Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Love Wedge +2:</b>" 35.2 weeks. He's 5 months, 4 months adjusted. Oh, I almost forgot. I was giving him a bath and he was ... [snip!] ... He was kicking his legs and moving his arms around. I bet it won't be long before he's splashing the water everywhere :D"</blockquote>



So cute :) u should post pics sometime :)



Sorry I haven't been here long so I'm trying to catch up on everyone's story haha. How was he at birth? Did he have any issues?



Im shocked at how strong my dd is. I worry about her vision and hearing though. Idk what's normal for them when they're not even due yet.

greenmamabecky☮ TTC since Jul 2013; 18 kids; Enfield, Connecticut 20987 posts
22nd Feb '13

Some of the nurses here are seriously so rude like I'm here on a daily basis I do the same thing every day with MY son they aren't here they don't know what I do then they try to act like I'm incompetent or don't know what I'm doing. What the hell do they expect to happpen when I take him home with me? He's MY child I am capable of doing minor tasks for him!

greenmamabecky☮ TTC since Jul 2013; 18 kids; Enfield, Connecticut 20987 posts
22nd Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Taryn - Anya's mommy:</b>" I am so sorry Mama, I know its hard, its a major emotional roller coaster. My daughter didn't start getting ... [snip!] ... you. I don't know if you have a cell number but I could PM you my cell number and you could text me anytime you need to vent."</blockquote>



No that's ok, even though you're offering I would most likely never text you because I wouldn't feel comfortable interrupting you or anything lol. I'm just happy I can come in here and vent to people who understand.



Creedence is 3 weeks old today and just 1oz short of 4 lbs. They started dieretics today for the 3rd time now but these are less harsh and longer term ones. I'm really hoping it clears his lungs up and helps his breathing although yesterday and today he did amazing.

lolajessup 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Beaverton, Michigan 44070 posts
22nd Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Will☮Creedence:</b>" Some of the nurses here are seriously so rude like I'm here on a daily basis I do the same thing every ... [snip!] ... What the hell do they expect to happpen when I take him home with me? He's MY child I am capable of doing minor tasks for him!"</blockquote>



:roll: I hate people like that :( sorry mama. They probably see a lot of uninvolved parents though. So they probably are just ASSuming. My nicu said lots of babies never get visitors :(

lolajessup 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Beaverton, Michigan 44070 posts
22nd Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Will☮Creedence:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Taryn - Anya's mommy:</b>" I am so sorry Mama, I know its hard, ... [snip!] ... longer term ones. I'm really hoping it clears his lungs up and helps his breathing although yesterday and today he did amazing."</blockquote>



That's awesome he's growing so fast :D