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Goodbye grandmother Laura [Syltherin] 3 kids; Florida 12072 posts
3rd Aug '10

My great grandmother was taken off life support today and was able to breath on her own for 2 hours before she finally passed at 2:15. I stayed by her side the entire time holding her hand and rubbing her legs. I wanted so badly to tell her i loved her, but i was unable to make myself speak. I just couldn't open my mouth.



The entire time she was breathing on her own, i wanted her to pass because i knew she was suffering. When she finally passed, i broke down in tears and thought to myself how badly i wanted her back and how horribly selfish i sounded.



When the nurse told us they would take her to the mourge when we left, i thought to myself 'why are you taking her there'? Then i looked down and realized that she was really gone. It doesn't feel real and yet, i feel so numb.



I want her back.



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user banned 1 child; California 4855 posts
3rd Aug '10

Im so sorry for you loss my great grandma died july 5th and im still having a very hard time with it she had full body cancer :(
your family is in my prayers

AdinasMomma 1 child; Red Deer, AB, Canada 1058 posts
3rd Aug '10

Im so sorry Momma, Think of the good times and know that she is finally free of her suffering. I hope you feel better <3

* anonymous * 17 kids; New York, New York 14277 posts
3rd Aug '10

Aw. Hunny. I'm so sorry! I know how hard it can be. I hope that the knowledge that she isn't suffering and your memories of her will help ease your pain in overcoming the grief. If you need to talk, you can always PM me.

Jessica 15 kids; Colorado Springs, Colorado 26006 posts
3rd Aug '10

i know how you feel.
my best friend/grandmother died 14 years ago and I still do not have the closure that I need in order to move on with my life. Just know she's in a better place and being taken care of now. So sorry for your loss. :(

Winning Warlock 2 kids; United Kingdom 6782 posts
3rd Aug '10

I am so terribly sorry for your loss hun :( I went through the same thing when my grandmother passed away in June. She was on life support due to complications from cancer, and when they took her off the ventilator I stood by her for as long as I could...She struggled for 6 hours to breathe on her own and it was the hardest thing to watch in my entire life, but at the same time I knew in my heart that it was what she wanted. Just be at peace knowing that she was surrounded by love when she passed and that you were given the chance to tell her goodbye - I know that is what has helped me over the last several weeks since my grandmother passed away...I'm so so sorry :(

Harley's Mama 1 child; Phoenix, Arizona 1011 posts
3rd Aug '10

I am so sorry for you loss... your post brought me to tears. Next Tuesday is the 12th anniversary of my grandma's passing. It does get a little easier with time. You and your family will be in my thoughts!

Laura [Syltherin] 3 kids; Florida 12072 posts
3rd Aug '10
Quoting Harley's Mama:
Harley's Mama 1 child; Phoenix, Arizona 1011 posts
3rd Aug '10
Quoting Laura [AKR & WAR]:
Laura [Syltherin] 3 kids; Florida 12072 posts
3rd Aug '10
Quoting Harley's Mama:
Harley's Mama 1 child; Phoenix, Arizona 1011 posts
3rd Aug '10
Quoting Laura [AKR & WAR]:
Laura [Syltherin] 3 kids; Florida 12072 posts
3rd Aug '10

It still doesn't feel real...

I wish my SO was home, i just want someone to hold me and let me cry.
I need her back!