its so heart breaking and awful! i just want to feel normal!
anyone else share these feelings?
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I feel like I had it in very mild form after my second daughter. She was 5 weeks early and an emergency c-section and I just cried for months and never left the house I never wanted people over I didn't even want my husband to touch the kids cause I thought if anyone touched them they would die. Idk it was crazy. It kinda went away I guess and thwn hit hard after my sons delivery and 5 week nicu stay.
I guess I just hate feeling alone. My son is 6months old (5 months adjusted) and everyone says "oh that's not ppd anymore its gone by now" and it makes me feel like shit. Am I crazy? I get terrible anxiety to wear my heart rate gets up to 125 and I feel like I'm going to pass out.
Sorry I'm just having a low point again and am not in a great mood. Just needed somewhere to vent since I feel like anyone I talk to says I'm annoying cause I'm happy one minute and wanna kill myself the next. Guess ill jusy cuddle my bub and take my medicine and hopefully get some sleep.
I cry a lot and I've been really mean. I dont even realize I'm mean until much later on. I just don't feel myself and I cant stand it. -_-
My daughter is a year old now and I've had this PPD since she was 2 week old. I am now on medication and seeing a councilor when I can. I do feel better but I still have a hard time bonding with my baby. I still don't feel like the happy person I was before I got pregnant and worry that it may never be the same again.