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Simply, Mom 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Upland, 11670 posts
14th May '13

I love this thread :)



how did I not join this years ago?

Just Ames 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Montego Bay, Jamaica 114793 posts
14th May '13
Quoting Simply Mom ⚓:" I love this thread :) how did I not join this years ago?"

Awesome! Unfortunately this thread was created because of a BG Momma committing suicide :( But it has been a good thing for some since then.

nothingness Arizona 3578 posts
14th May '13

Idk exactly what to put but here goes..



My name is Mariah, I'm 22. I just a baby boy 6 months ago and I'm dealing with some horrible ppd. I think I am fat and ugly and pathetic. I enrolled in counseling and she's giving me tips to help but I think I need more support. Im a prisoner in my head, it's filled with bad thoughts and judgement towards myself. I just need someone who will be interested in listening to me and helping me get over my childhood traumas. I've attempted suicide multiple times, obviously failed. I still wish I would of succeeded to this day. I just don't understand why I'm here, I don't really serve a purpose besides being a mom now. I just feel so lost and not myself.



Thanks for reading and any help

Just Ames 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Montego Bay, Jamaica 114793 posts
14th May '13
Quoting Katerina Petrova:" Idk exactly what to put but here goes.. My name is Mariah, I'm 22. I just a baby boy 6 months ago and ... [snip!] ... I don't really serve a purpose besides being a mom now. I just feel so lost and not myself. Thanks for reading and any help"

Are you on medication for your PPD? That's the first start, IMO. It's a chemical imbalance in which you cannot control. The therapist can absolutely be of aid in regards to your childhood trauma.

☠Undead Mommy☠ 1 child; Westerville, Ohio 24561 posts
14th May '13

On mothers day,I got mad/depressed and punched something. My knuckles are terribly bruised. I'm so embarassed,I did that to myself. With cuts,you can easily hide. The other day my babydaddys mom asked what happened "you look like ___ but she smashed her hand,on the conveter belt at work" I just told her I was stupid.. :/ I am waiting for my next appointment,these meds worked for like two weeks and I think help a bit still because I still try,and before I was at a point where I just sulked CONSTANTLY..

☠Undead Mommy☠ 1 child; Westerville, Ohio 24561 posts
14th May '13
Quoting Katerina Petrova:" Idk exactly what to put but here goes.. My name is Mariah, I'm 22. I just a baby boy 6 months ago and ... [snip!] ... I don't really serve a purpose besides being a mom now. I just feel so lost and not myself. Thanks for reading and any help"


I feel very similar,I can't count how many attempts I have made anymore. I'm 19 almost 20 with a three year old.. Having a kid semi young,you're body changes drastically. And I don't feel too confident either, most days. I'm here if you need to talk

Simply, Mom 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Upland, 11670 posts
14th May '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Just Ames:</b>" Awesome! Unfortunately this thread was created because of a BG Momma committing suicide :( But it has been a good thing for some since then."</blockquote>




well I meant no offense it just has helped me out of some pretty down days so I meant it in the nicest way

Simply, Mom 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Upland, 11670 posts
14th May '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting ☠Undead Mommy☠:</b>" On mothers day,I got mad/depressed and punched something. My knuckles are terribly bruised. I'm so embarassed,I ... [snip!] ... like two weeks and I think help a bit still because I still try,and before I was at a point where I just sulked CONSTANTLY.."</blockquote>




I'm sorry momma hope you find something that works soon

☠Undead Mommy☠ 1 child; Westerville, Ohio 24561 posts
14th May '13
Quoting Simply Mom ⚓:" <blockquote><b>Quoting ☠Undead Mommy☠:</b>" On mothers day,I got mad/depressed ... [snip!] ... was at a point where I just sulked CONSTANTLY.."</blockquote> I'm sorry momma hope you find something that works soon"

Thanks,me too. I just want to wake up and not feel depressed right away for a bit,lol

Simply, Mom 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Upland, 11670 posts
14th May '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting ☠Undead Mommy☠:</b>" Thanks,me too. I just want to wake up and not feel depressed right away for a bit,lol"</blockquote>




Me too. I would rather be dreaming than be awake most days

Yurvette [♥] 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36449 posts
14th May '13
Quoting ☠Undead Mommy☠:" Thanks,me too. I just want to wake up and not feel depressed right away for a bit,lol"


Yeah same here. I wake up and I dont want to be awake. But I have to get the kid up and out to school. But then I crawl in bed for half the day, then for an hour I am up and cleaning, and then Im couch ridden. Its horrible. :(

nothingness Arizona 3578 posts
14th May '13
Quoting Just Ames:" Are you on medication for your PPD? That's the first start, IMO. It's a chemical imbalance in which you cannot control. The therapist can absolutely be of aid in regards to your childhood trauma."


No I'm breastfeeding right now. But at this point...I'd take them now. I want this stop and just go away.

nothingness Arizona 3578 posts
14th May '13
Quoting ☠Undead Mommy☠:" I feel very similar,I can't count how many attempts I have made anymore. I'm 19 almost 20 with a three ... [snip!] ... kid semi young,you're body changes drastically. And I don't feel too confident either, most days. I'm here if you need to talk"


Does your mind just control your life? Like, the thoughts. They just consume me. I constantly feed off of them and the only time I feel ok is when I'm high. Which I don't even get often now. So every day I'm a mess. My SO says he'll never leave but I don't believe it. They tell me my son loves me no matter what, but i don't believe it. I just don't believe I'm good enough. Do you feel like that? Does anything help?



People don't really like to be around me anymore...I think I offend people when I don't accept their compliments and talk bad about myself. It's like I don't even know I'm doing it. And then I realize it and it's too late and I already made a complete ass of myself, which makes me feel even more worse.



Sometimes I want to hate my parents for the things they did that have led me to this point, but then I end up hating myself because I know I can fix it, but I just don't know what to do. I have so much going on I can't focus on what I'm saying or thinking all the time.

Ravey Candyass 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Boston, Massachusetts 103128 posts
status 15th May '13
Quoting Katerina Petrova:" No I'm breastfeeding right now. But at this point...I'd take them now. I want this stop and just go away."

zoloft is safe while nursing. I took it.

Just Ames 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Montego Bay, Jamaica 114793 posts
15th May '13
Quoting Katerina Petrova:" No I'm breastfeeding right now. But at this point...I'd take them now. I want this stop and just go away."

You still have options. Please look into it. And even IF you have to stop breastfeeding it's OK. Your mental health is more important.