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HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22848 posts
status 11th Nov '12

f**k I'm really not doing so well. I want to just check into the damn hospital. Obviously I'm not getting any better. Lucy is sleeping next to me and I'm not tired right now. I need to go to sleep so I can be a better momma in the morning. One reason I don't want to be in the hospital is because I don't want to miss Christmas. I've never missed a Christmas with my family and now I have Lucy it is even more important to me. I've never missed the holidays. I'm going to call my therapist in the morning she gave me her personal cell phone number.

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22848 posts
status 12th Nov '12

So frustrated...

Chef Sarah ♥ Due May 11; 1 child; Hollywood, FL, United States 10332 posts
12th Nov '12

I didn't know there was a thread for this.



Blah, I feel so damn sad all the time/

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22848 posts
status 12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" I didn't know there was a thread for this. Blah, I feel so damn sad all the time/"</blockquote>




I'm sorry! I really am. Are you on antidepressants? Are you in counseling?

Chef Sarah ♥ Due May 11; 1 child; Hollywood, FL, United States 10332 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" I didn't know there was a thread ... [snip!] ... so damn sad all the time/"</blockquote> I'm sorry! I really am. Are you on antidepressants? Are you in counseling?"


No :? I'm calling tomorrow to make an appointment though. I hope it helps.

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22848 posts
status 12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" No :? I'm calling tomorrow to make an appointment though. I hope it helps."</blockquote>




Hopefully because it seems you need to be on something. And therapy helps!

Chef Sarah ♥ Due May 11; 1 child; Hollywood, FL, United States 10332 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" No :? I'm calling tomorrow to ... [snip!] ... though. I hope it helps."</blockquote> Hopefully because it seems you need to be on something. And therapy helps!"


I think I do too. My old psychiatrist wanted to perscribe me Prozac but I was a minor so my parents wouldn't allow me to :? I haven't seen/spoke to anyone in like 9 months and it's way overdue. I'm super stressed and sad lately. Even if I start the day off good, it always ends up turning sad. Depression, anxiety disorder and bi-polar disorder run in my family. Even my boyfriend said medication sounds like a good thing, I've just heard that it can actually make it worse sometimes and I really don't want that.

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22848 posts
status 12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" I think I do too. My old psychiatrist wanted to perscribe me Prozac but I was a minor so my parents ... [snip!] ... medication sounds like a good thing, I've just heard that it can actually make it worse sometimes and I really don't want that."</blockquote>




More often than not it will make it better. It could take a few weeks to have it help. Are you having panic attacks?

Chef Sarah ♥ Due May 11; 1 child; Hollywood, FL, United States 10332 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" I think I do too. My old psychiatrist ... [snip!] ... More often than not it will make it better. It could take a few weeks to have it help. Are you having panic attacks?"


Not really. I hope it works though. Seeing someone usually helps me a lot.

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22848 posts
status 12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" Not really. I hope it works though. Seeing someone usually helps me a lot."</blockquote>




I hope it works too. I hope nobody goes through what I've gone through. It breaks my heart

Chef Sarah ♥ Due May 11; 1 child; Hollywood, FL, United States 10332 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" Not really. I hope it works though. ... [snip!] ... me a lot."</blockquote> I hope it works too. I hope nobody goes through what I've gone through. It breaks my heart"


What happened?

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22848 posts
status 12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" What happened?"</blockquote>




Depression. Hallucinations. Anxiety. Diagnosed since 12. Three hospitalization in the last year and a half. Last one for five and a half months. Missing half of my daughter's life. Suicidal ideations and plans

Chef Sarah ♥ Due May 11; 1 child; Hollywood, FL, United States 10332 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" What happened?"</blockquote> ... [snip!] ... the last year and a half. Last one for five and a half months. Missing half of my daughter's life. Suicidal ideations and plans"


:cry: I'm so sorry. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember but I wasn't diagnosed until about a year ago. I tried cutting when I was around 12/13 and it was such an escape.. I've been thinking of something to take the pain away but I don't want to go down that road.

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22848 posts
status 12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" :cry: I'm so sorry. I've been depressed for as long as I can remember but I wasn't diagnosed until about ... [snip!] ... 12/13 and it was such an escape.. I've been thinking of something to take the pain away but I don't want to go down that road."</blockquote>




I've cut when I was in the hospital but it didn't do what I thought it would do it. I have been diagnosed with Bulimia also. Thank you

Chef Sarah ♥ Due May 11; 1 child; Hollywood, FL, United States 10332 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Sophia's Mommy♥:</b>" :cry: I'm so sorry. I've been ... [snip!] ... when I was in the hospital but it didn't do what I thought it would do it. I have been diagnosed with Bulimia also. Thank you"


I've thought about doing that or just not eating all together. I absolutely hate my body :x I wish I could lose weight but I have no motivation.