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Team (missing Kobe) TTC since Aug 2013; 3 kids; Utah 15198 posts
28th Oct '11
Quoting P the Preemie Mama:" Thanks, love. Writing it all out helps me organize my thoughts about it a little. My thoughts are ... [snip!] ... after he was out, he managed to poop on AJ twice AND me once AND pee on both of us in the 40 minutes he was alive. No joke!"


He was a little spitfire that is for sure! Wonder where he got that from ;)

P Pickle Pants 98 kids; California 20522 posts
28th Oct '11
Quoting Team (missing Kobe):" He was a little spitfire that is for sure! Wonder where he got that from ;) "


Nooo idea. Couldn't be lil ol innocent me! :D

Amy {OneGirl, TwoBoys} 3 kids; Cincinnati, Oh, United States 24256 posts
29th Oct '11

i'm so sorry :(

Lauren ∆ TTC since Jun 2013; 2 kids; Darlington, United Kingdom 7077 posts
31st Oct '11

Sorry for your loss. You tell your story brilliantly.

Aliyah's mama Due August 9 (girl); 32 kids; Nebraska 5616 posts
2nd Nov '11

Wow is really all I can say. Wow at the beautiful little boy you created. Wow at the way your words have an effect and put people right there along with you. Wow at how strong you are to go through this!

I am beyond sorry mama and hope and pray (and have faith) that you will get your little boy for your son to play with here on Earth until they can all play together again in Heaven. :)

P Pickle Pants 98 kids; California 20522 posts
2nd Nov '11
Quoting Aliyah's mama:" Wow is really all I can say. Wow at the beautiful little boy you created. Wow at the way your words have ... [snip!] ... that you will get your little boy for your son to play with here on Earth until they can all play together again in Heaven. :) "


Thank you. I have 12 days before my follow-up appointment with my doc to assess when we can start to try again. My hubby is deploying in 2-3 months, so I need to hear him say "this occurred because of outside factors. it is very unlikely to recur in future pregnancies." and IF he says that, we're planning to not actively TTC but not prevent until he leaves and then let God decide.

Ashes[+4] 4 kids; Colorado 26994 posts
2nd Nov '11
Quoting P is for Princess Badass:" Thank you. I have 12 days before my follow-up appointment with my doc to assess when we can start to ... [snip!] ... pregnancies." and IF he says that, we're planning to not actively TTC but not prevent until he leaves and then let God decide."


Good luck, sweetie!

Miss Darko 1 child; 1 angel baby; Nicholasville, KY, United States 9 posts
2nd Nov '11

I cannot even begin to imagine how hard all of this was for you...
You are a much stronger woman than I and my heart goes out to you and your family. This was beautifully written. I hope one day you get your little bundle of joy, you deserve it more than anything. <3

I heart Leighlyn&Cashyn 2 kids; Greenville, Texas 67 posts
3rd Nov '11

i am so very sorry mama your story was beautifuly written and breaks my heart i am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby boy.. no mother should ever have to endure that pain.. deagans story touched my heart and i hold my babys a little closer and count my blessings i pray for you and your family and i know god will bless you because he never gives u more than u can handle and after going through so much he has to have great joy instore for you god bless u

Brittany♥Gracelyn 1 child; 1 angel baby; West Virginia 949 posts
5th Nov '11

I read every single word. And I cried the entire time. I couldn't imagine the pain you have felt, no one should have to endure that. You are extremely strong. You and your family will be in my prayers tonight! And good luck to you, I'm hoping and praying for the doctor to tell you it will never happen again!

Squid Kid Unavailable, NA, United States 32450 posts
5th Nov '11

You picked a beautiful name for such a beautiful soul <3

Kat♥TTC_Mama♥ TTC since Mar 2010; 4 angel babies; Madison Heights, Virginia 8880 posts
6th Nov '11
Quoting P is for Princess Badass:" You don't go into this thinking "I'm going to lose this baby." Hell, when you see two lines on a ... [snip!] ... me enough places for it to go to hold it all. Until then, I sit here aching with so much love that I may burst at the seams."


i'm so sorry mama. i'm teary eyed cause its so similar to my story.

miss mandiie 1 child; Windsor, Ontario 1822 posts
6th Nov '11

reading this brought tears to my eyes, such a terrible thing to happen, you were so close. i hope you are staying strong and getting through it okay.



your angel is watching over you.

Marine Wifey and Mommy 2 kids; California 654 posts
8th Nov '11

I am so sorry for your loss, I'm sitting here bawling my eyes out. I know its hard to understand why God does some of the things he does, but it makes me happy to know you still; believe and trust in God. Your beautiful baby boy is now up in heaven with God, he is at peace. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I've never experienced this heartbreak, so I cant say I know how you feel, but I know that it will make you stronger, over time, and an even more amazing mother to your oldest.

Ms. Danielly Belly 51 kids; San Marcos, California 743 posts
14th Nov '11

Your story was beautiful I too lost a son at twenty weeks and it brought me to tears because all of those emoitions are how I felt! My son wasent born alive but I felt him kick about thirty minutes before I had him. I know we don't know each other my name is danielle and I'm here if you ever wanna talk