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:*( Milk*factory* 18 kids; Fredericktown-Millsboro, Pennsylvania 3147 posts
12th Apr '12

Today is harder than yesterday. I know now that everyday that passes will only be harder. I miss my son. I want him in my arms so bad. and even though I did all I could and I had no control over him coming into the world this soon, I still cant help but to blame myself. maybe if I was more active. maybe if I wasnt 160 pounds. maybe if I didnt eat so much chocolate. maybe just maybe if my body was healthier he wouldnt be laying in that NICU alone. hes just too beautiful. he deserves to be cuddled and held and kissed. I cant do those things for him. the mommy in me is dying inside without him. the human in me knows its better for him to be in there to grow strong and healthy.
I just need my son to be better.

5 years= 5kids Due November 2; 4 kids; Sullivan, Missouri 2287 posts
12th Apr '12

:( Praying for you and your son. It's the most pain wrenching thing watching your child sick and in the hospital.

Deborah Stechschulte 3 kids; Ohio 2565 posts
12th Apr '12

I couldn't imagine leaving the hospital without my baby! That's really sad and I"m sorry you have to go through it.



Is there a place you can stay nearby where you can go see him? I've heard lots of things that seem to point out a mother's touch helps babies heal faster!



HOpe everything works out the way you want! Stay strong little one!

[♥Permanent♥] 50 kids; Georgia 2956 posts
12th Apr '12

I'm so sorry. I will keep you and your son in my prayers

Trinityandbraydensmom Due March 10 (girl); 3 kids; New Philadelphia, Ohio 235 posts
12th Apr '12

i just brought my 6 weeks old preemie home friday ( he was 9 weeks early) when hes home those nicu days will be so far behind you that you will barely think of them!! I know its hard momma but jsut hang in there! It will be over before you know it! its exp hard when you have lo's at home i know but you will be a family before you know it!

Milk*factory* 18 kids; Fredericktown-Millsboro, Pennsylvania 3147 posts
12th Apr '12
Quoting Trinityandbraydensmom:" i just brought my 6 weeks old preemie home friday ( he was 9 weeks early) when hes home those nicu days ... [snip!] ... It will be over before you know it! its exp hard when you have lo's at home i know but you will be a family before you know it!"


your son was 9 weeks early too?
I had all hope and faith I would have bryson home by 34 weeks. but if your son was there 6 weeks.. that puts a whole new thought in my head :(

5 years= 5kids Due November 2; 4 kids; Sullivan, Missouri 2287 posts
12th Apr '12
Quoting I have a princess:" your son was 9 weeks early too? I had all hope and faith I would have bryson home by 34 weeks. but if your son was there 6 weeks.. that puts a whole new thought in my head :("

Every baby is different. Some get to come home earlier than others. What did your doctor tell you.

Milk*factory* 18 kids; Fredericktown-Millsboro, Pennsylvania 3147 posts
12th Apr '12
Quoting 4 years= 4kids:" Every baby is different. Some get to come home earlier than others. What did your doctor tell you."


they just said not until your due date. *sigh* but hes doing so well. hes gaining weight and has been he hasnt lost since the first day he was born. hes been off oxygen since the day after he was born. all his ivs are out. he can hold his own temp now. the only 2 things that are stopping him, is him eating on his own which they said is impossible until 34 weeks + then the other thing is the e bradys the heart dips hes having 5 a day sometimes more. and they said those done stop until 36 weeks and he has to go one whole week without them to come home. :( those 2 things are whats stopping him from coming home. and I keep hoping that he can pull the "impossible" from what they say and come home sooner than that

*mommy to a 3rd* 3 kids; Utah 3761 posts
12th Apr '12

Oh Hun I wish I could hug you . Everything will be ok . He will be home before you know it . I look back now and think well it wasn't so bad . Now my son is almost three and doing great . Keep your head up love .

Trinityandbraydensmom Due March 10 (girl); 3 kids; New Philadelphia, Ohio 235 posts
12th Apr '12

i did to but just remember it gets easier and all babies are different.. jackson was small for his GA he was only 2 pds 15 oz.. he doesnt have any health problems but he was small.. If they are letting him eat already thats a great sign!! they wouldnt let jackson try untill almost 35 weeks...

Trinityandbraydensmom Due March 10 (girl); 3 kids; New Philadelphia, Ohio 235 posts
12th Apr '12

and jackson still bradys and they let him come home! he is slowly growing out of it! he hardly ever sets off his little heart monitor now! they sent him home on a little heart monitor that just looks like a purse... it sounds like a pain but its very reassuring and easy to use. they call them growers...all he needs to do is grow honey :-) i know its super hard! hes my first preemie but my 3rd child