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Kat♥TTC_Mama♥ TTC since Mar 2010; 4 angel babies; Madison Heights, Virginia 8880 posts
1st Mar '13

this close to pos or there? never had it do a darker line in the test line before



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Amelia [a Mom] 1 child; 4 angel babies; Tallahassee, Florida 16489 posts
1st Mar '13

So I tested again and it was clearly a BFN. But let me be completely honest with you - I am relieved. I know it sounds crazy and it is very weird for me being relieved at a BFN but that is exactly how I feel. I had no idea I didn't actually want to be pregnant until I thought I might be. It made me nervous to be pregnant for the surgery. Mentally I don't think I'm ready to be pregnant yet. And what really threw me for a loop was this: I was SAD at the thought of having my "own" baby because this baby wouldn't have come from the same gene pool as Hope.



Anyways, sorry for the drama!



ETA - also can't help but feel like an irresponsible teen TTC, lmao.

Amelia [a Mom] 1 child; 4 angel babies; Tallahassee, Florida 16489 posts
1st Mar '13
Quoting Kat♥TTC_Mama♥:" this close to pos or there? never had it do a darker line in the test line before "


They say if a line has a fade in like that and the dark side of the line is half the width of the line then it's positive. That's not quite half though so I'm not sure. I would count it as positive just in case.

Kat♥TTC_Mama♥ TTC since Mar 2010; 4 angel babies; Madison Heights, Virginia 8880 posts
1st Mar '13
Quoting Amelia Margaret:" They say if a line has a fade in like that and the dark side of the line is half the width of the line ... [snip!] ... width of the line then it's positive. That's not quite half though so I'm not sure. I would count it as positive just in case."


im thinking very close, been having cramps on left side since 530am after we bded and noticed got ewcm now



and i understand the feeling your having with the bfn cause of the TAC, im scared that when finally get just to vaginally placed celerage that something will happen adn baby will die and its worst cuase my best friend lost a little girl from the cerleage placement surgery cause of a blood clot from it. and remember Hope still your daughter and any baby from your own egg will be her sibling anyways even if dna says half sibling. my sister adn brother have a different father but i consider them just plain siblings cause i consider that father more a dad than mine was.

brodyzmom Due December 18 (girl); 1 child; 3 angel babies; Huntsville, Alabama 2792 posts
1st Mar '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Amelia Margaret:</b>" So I tested again and it was clearly a BFN. But let me be completely honest with you - I am relieved. ... [snip!] ... same gene pool as Hope. Anyways, sorry for the drama! ETA - also can't help but feel like an irresponsible teen TTC, lmao."</blockquote>




Completely understandable! You're still healing too! I can only imagine the grieving process of losing one so far along, especially one you worked so hard for. :( I'm sure she's picking out the perfect sibling to send you soon!

LindseyLou+2 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Washington 6606 posts
1st Mar '13
Quoting Mrs.O♥:" I know it wasn't really a "baby", but I thought of it as one... is that crazy of me?"


I say absolutely NOT crazy!

LindseyLou+2 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Washington 6606 posts
1st Mar '13

So... My beta levels have been....
2/15 - 588
2/17 - 575
2/22 - 395
3/1 - 607



Someone please have an explanation?! The nurse had none. I was told I would be called back on Monday... but I got a phone call 30 minutes later (the doctor was paged). I need an abdominal u/s next week and a repeat beta in 2 weeks. I was told no D&C unless I start bleeding profusely or the U/S shows tissue unpassable. I REALLY REALLY REALLY don't want a D&C.

LindseyLou+2 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Washington 6606 posts
1st Mar '13
Quoting Mrs.O♥:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Amelia Margaret:</b>" That is not only NOT crazy, but completely ... [snip!] ... me feel strong in a weird way. Life has thrown me all these hurdles, and I know this is just another one I will jump over!!"


I admire your resiliency!

CLC TTC since Jul 2009; 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Nebraska 1735 posts
1st Mar '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting jacesmom:</b>" So... My beta levels have been.... 2/15 - 588 2/17 - 575 2/22 - 395 3/1 - 607 Someone please have an ... [snip!] ... no D&C unless I start bleeding profusely or the U/S shows tissue unpassable. I REALLY REALLY REALLY don't want a D&C."</blockquote>




Um are they sure the baby is gone? Idk

LindseyLou+2 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Washington 6606 posts
1st Mar '13
Quoting CLC:" <blockquote><b>Quoting jacesmom:</b>" So... My beta levels have been.... 2/15 - 588 ... [snip!] ... tissue unpassable. I REALLY REALLY REALLY don't want a D&C."</blockquote> Um are they sure the baby is gone? Idk"


DH thinks that we were pregnant with multiples and we lost one?! I don't know. I'm guessing that's why we're doing the U/S next week.

CLC TTC since Jul 2009; 3 kids; 1 angel baby; Nebraska 1735 posts
1st Mar '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting NurseLindsey:</b>" DH thinks that we were pregnant with multiples and we lost one?! I don't know. I'm guessing that's why we're doing the U/S next week. "</blockquote>




I see so how many weeks would you be today?

LindseyLou+2 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Washington 6606 posts
1st Mar '13
Quoting CLC:" <blockquote><b>Quoting NurseLindsey:</b>" DH thinks that we were pregnant with multiples ... [snip!] ... know. I'm guessing that's why we're doing the U/S next week. "</blockquote> I see so how many weeks would you be today?"


7 weeks 2 days

......... nowhere, NW, United States 25972 posts
1st Mar '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting NurseLindsey:</b>" DH thinks that we were pregnant with multiples and we lost one?! I don't know. I'm guessing that's why we're doing the U/S next week. "</blockquote>




That's what I'm thinking...

brodyzmom Due December 18 (girl); 1 child; 3 angel babies; Huntsville, Alabama 2792 posts
2nd Mar '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting NurseLindsey:</b>" DH thinks that we were pregnant with multiples and we lost one?! I don't know. I'm guessing that's why we're doing the U/S next week. "</blockquote>




Sounds quite possible! Idk if your levels can go UP from just retained tissue...

Katie & Clay's Mommy! TTC since Jan 2012; 18 kids; Louisiana 2847 posts
2nd Mar '13
Quoting Kat♥TTC_Mama♥:" this close to pos or there? never had it do a darker line in the test line before "


Looks like what I got this morning on mine. It's a positive one. I don't know what's wrong with me though. I had EWCM on the 22nd and 23rd then it dried up. Got a positive opk on the 27th which is weird or close to positive. Now I do one this morning just for the hell of it and the test line is as dark as the control. I just learned I have PCOS but even with it I've had normal surges. This one is a weird one. If I ovulated when I had the EWCM then I'd be 7dpo. We did BD this morning and when I wiped I had some gooky stuff but it could have been from the man stuff. So I don't know. I wish I knew what was going on. Unless my body tried to ovulate and didn't and is trying again. I have no clue. I'm about to get back on my metformin and see what happens. I have normally regular cycles and usually ovulate on my own. I've been twinging on my right side for a couple of days now. I got one opk left so I will test again with it in a couple of hours to see if that one is positive also and if it is I guess it means I'll be O'ing today or tomorrow sometime.