Today was the day.. ☀chelx0 ☮ 1 child; 1 angel baby; Pennsylvania 4564 posts21st Aug '12
Today I went in for my abortion. After many weeks of Going back and forth I finally did it. I know having a 2nd child right now was not a good idea. From me being unstable mentally, emotionally, financially... The father and I are not together. His family hates me for it because they just don't get it.. Adoption was not an option for me cause I wouldn't emotionally be able to do it.. So today I went. I took my friend Emily with me. I wasn't really nervous until it was almost time to go in the room. Protesters were outside saying I need help and my baby will haunt me. I told them to f**k off. :X I got in there, peed in a cup, got my finger pricked, did the counseling and then waited for 2 hours I'm pretty sure.. As they were calling the girls back.. Everyone there seemed pretty calm and content. I know I was. Then it was time for me.. Went in the room, it got surreal. Took my blood pressure and temp. Had me undress from the waste down. It was so cold in there and I was all by myself. Started to get extremely nervous.. The doctors came in, didn't talk much nor explain what they were doing really. When it started the shot of medicine to my cervix hurt so bad and the whole process was hurting so bad I couldnt breathe I started to cry. Only because of the pain. It was intense cramping but just felt like they were pullin my insides or just shooting my cervix with needles the whole time! Then he said he was going into the last step and I thought what!? It's almost over already I didn't even know he actually was doing the real thing already. Which was a good thin cause I knew it'd be over soon... After he was done it still hurt so bad..I went to the waiting room where I sat in a recliner, took 800mg of ibuprofen, was given a hot water bottle, crackers, cookies, and water. The cramps were bad for a while. My bleeding was very little... I was released prob after 25 mins. The cramps have stopped for awhile but they're back now and it just seems like I'm on my period when I go to the bathroom.. Overall I am at peace with my decision and i do not regret it. I do in fact think of the little one and I hope it will understand why.. I love you baby.. <3
Serial Mom ✄ 18 kids; Michigan 2688 posts21st Aug '12
Glad it went well and that it wasn't too painful, and that it went by fast. It's over with and I hope you move on quickly. Spend lots of time with your LO! That always helps.
Damien & Wyatt's Mommy 2 kids; Junction City, Kansas 25956 posts21st Aug '12
I'm glad it's over with *hugs* I <3 you Chels!
Tikaytasha 17 kids; New York 11503 posts21st Aug '12
Glad it's over for you hun. Hugs
V & E's Mom! 2 kids; Stockton, California 4782 posts21st Aug '12
always here for you mama. <3