Quoting Yurvette [♥]:" Im lonely. Im sick of being lonely. I want a boyfriend. I want someone to kiss and hold and cuddle. "
me too. .People always tell me "you got to be happy with yourself first"...but dammit, I love my son but he isnt a man to cuddle with and talk to :(
Today I just dont wanna do anything.
I want to lay in my bed and cry, fall alseep and never wake up.
I cant take it anymore.
No mater how much we try it is never,ever going to be enough.
Teen parenting is so f**king hard.
We dont get everything handed to us. Its a constant struggle.
I dont want this anymore.
Sometimes I just wish I was a normal teenager with no cares in the world. I wish I could stay out all night getting completed f**king waisted. Smoke as many ciggerates as I want too. I feel horrible for feeling like this. But my youth was ripped away from me so fast. </3
Quoting May ♥:" Today I just dont wanna do anything. I want to lay in my bed and cry, fall alseep and never wake up. ... [snip!] ... as many ciggerates as I want too. I feel horrible for feeling like this. But my youth was ripped away from me so fast. </3"
I absolutely feel your pain! I feel like this all the time its kind of nice to know im not the only one.
My mom passed when I was 8 years old (20 years ago) and I miss her more, now that I've had my own daughter, than ever before
I'm sure there is a much smoother way of telling me you think I'm fat then I need to lose more (then the 60lb I lost after first LO) after this baby.
Gah, had an observation today. Three f**king people sitting in the back of my classroom typing on their laptops about me.
Not really a confession but just wanted to say that it's f**king hell being observed. :(
Im sitting here on the phone with a friend of mine and Im thinking of things that happened and Im getting so pissed off and so hurt, and I feel like outlashing and making a public post. I am depressed. So depressed.
On another note. I want to tell my mom that Im depressed.. but I dont know how to word it. I dont want her worried about me. I dont want to make her feel like she needs to check up on me.
I talked to you on the phone a couple days ago and every time I do I always ask myself, why do I even bother? I told you I was pregnant because everyone else thought you should know, you should be thankful I told you. You said, "so this means I'm gonna be a papa, huh?" No it doesn't, you were never a "father" to me so you will never be a "papa" to my child. Lennon's papa will be my step-father, he may not have been the best father figure to me either, but at least he taught me life lessons and I probably wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him and Mom.
Sometimes I don't even know if I should tell Lennon about you because of all the let downs and lies you told me, I don't want him to be let down by you either.
my grandmother died of a sudden heart attack last night. I feel guilty for ignoring her phone calls for the last few weeks. Cherish you family, you never know when they will leave you. :cry:
I have only told my boyfriend this. Not even my parents know. And I don't want them to.
My 8th grade year, about 2 weeks after I turned 13, I was raped.
A guy I had known forever forced me to the woods along with his friend and he raped me while his friend held me down and laughed. Afterwards he told me to get an abortion if I was pregnant.
If that night would have never happened, I would be a completely different person.
I don't understand why people are so evil. Taking away my innocence. I didn't deserve it. And now 5 years later, I'm a horrible person.
Quoting Brianna G:):" I have only told my boyfriend this. Not even my parents know. And I don't want them to. My 8th grade ... [snip!] ... understand why people are so evil. Taking away my innocence. I didn't deserve it. And now 5 years later, I'm a horrible person."
I'm so sorry that happened to you. It is not your fault, hun. You are not a horrible person. Why would you think that?
<blockquote><b>Quoting bbbt:</b>" I'm so sorry that happened to you. It is not your fault, hun. You are not a horrible person. Why would you think that? "</blockquote>
I have done a lot of things I'm not proud of. I still have so much anger and aggression built up. I just feel like I could have done anything to change this. I finally told my boyfriend lie 4 months ago. No one else knows. I just feel helpless.