I wish things were different... Pinkman 1 child; Melbourne, VC, Australia 5192 posts2nd Sep '12
I feel like such a shit parent sometimes. It makes me so sad that DS only has one parent, one set of grandparents, and one uncle. Obviously my extended family loves him but they're just great aunts/uncles and second cousins to him. I wish he wasn't born into such a shitty situation. It just makes me feel like it's my fault that I can't provide my son with the family he deserves. I wish that my son's father wasn't such a p***e o* s**t and maybe just cared a little, teeny bit about his own flesh and blood but no, he's too busy with his "new life". I feel so guilty for bringing him into a world where he doesn't have both parents. I can't imagine growing up knowing my own father didn't give two shits about me and would rather be with someone other than my mom. I have a hard time not being resentful. In my mind, I try to come to terms with what has transpired but it's hard. I don't want to be with my ex anymore. I just want him to want to know his son. Maybe come and visit him sometimes. It breaks me knowing that it'll never happen. What if when I meet someone new, his parents don't love DS as much as they'll care for they're "real" grandkids. Ugh, I just want to stay single forever. I just want my family.
Gone 17 kids; Miami, FL, United States 15411 posts2nd Sep '12
Quoting ♥ cal's mama:" I feel like such a shit parent sometimes. It makes me so sad that DS only has one parent, one set of ... [snip!] ... love DS as much as they'll care for they're "real" grandkids. Ugh, I just want to stay single forever. I just want my family. "
I don't have the right thing to say about that, but I looked at your profile and your son is SO adorable. It's better to have one parent that loves you a ton then to have them both but one of them not care about you at all.
mommyashley! Due November 17; 3 kids; Bristol, Tennessee 316 posts2nd Sep '12
Believe me hun, you will find someone that loves LO as much as they do you! I never thought I would but I did!! My in laws treat my DD as if she were really my husbands! She calls my DH daddy and has for 4 out of 5 years! Her "s***m Donor" hardly ever sees her and when he does it is only for a few hours at a time on average about 5 hours a year!! seriously!! Remember...Any man can be a father but it takes a REAL MAN to be a daddy!!
Pinkman 1 child; Melbourne, VC, Australia 5192 posts2nd Sep '12
Quoting Anthony's Mommy ♥:" :( I don't have the right thing to say about that, but I looked at your profile and your son is SO ... [snip!] ... adorable. It's better to have one parent that loves you a ton then to have them both but one of them not care about you at all."
Thank you :)
I know with the way my ex is, it's better that he isn't around. I just wish I would have made a kid with a better guy, haha.
Yurvette [♥] Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36425 posts2nd Sep '12
Honey, dont be hard on yourself <3 Things happen. He will understand. <3 I am here for you if you need to talk!
IDGAF ❤ 1 child; San Diego, CA, United States 30500 posts2nd Sep '12
I feel you on this. I feel so shitty when I think of what I brought my daughter into. I am half way lucky her dad does come around sometimes but it isn't the same as if we were in a loving relationship. I feel horrible about it.
Kyan&Nate Due February 25; 1 child; Australia 142 posts2nd Sep '12
My sons father left when he found out I was pregnant; we had been together two years at that point. I am now with a man that I knew as a child and he was there when my son was born. His family (father) was sceptical at first but his mother was completey supportive. They all adore him now but I worry about telling my son about his biological father when he is older. I just hope that having a father that loves him will help, knowing that my ex didn't want anything to do with him. I really hope you meet a man that is deserving of your son and loves him as much as you do. you deserve to be happy.