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******************* La Reggaetonista Due July 16; 18 kids; Peru 1211 posts
3rd Sep '12

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Yurvette [♥] 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36449 posts
3rd Sep '12

Dude f**k him. Dont let him get to you. He only said that shit to get under your skin. :(

Squid Kid Due July 2; 1 child; 5 angel babies; Tennessee 27541 posts
status 3rd Sep '12

I can't say that I will ever understand the pain of your decision or the amount of guilt that must come with it, but I think that in any passing of a fetus/baby, that guilt will be there, whether it was by your choice or not.



I feel guilt, I feel anger, I feel extreme sadness.. and my situation is nowhere near yours. Your wounds are still fresh, you can not expect for them to be healed, your emotions are normal. You are not a monster, you are not a bad person. You are a person who made the best decision for you, your children and your family when you made it and they will continue to benefit from your choice. But you will hurt, that hurt isn't going to go away for a long time. You're still having daily reminders, you're still going through the motions of healing.



It's okay to feel. It's okay to be sad. It's NORMAL to feel guilt, that does not mean you ARE guilty. It means you are human and a human who is expressing the pain of their experience through these emotions. Everyone reacts differently. This is not an abnormal reaction <3



I'm so sorry you have to deal with this pain so much. I wish he would get out of your life and allow you to heal.

Speech Path Momma 1 child; Kansas 7130 posts
3rd Sep '12

I was not raped but I was pressured into an abortion. I'm so sorry about your situation, i can't imagine the pain you must be experiencing from all of this. Have you seen a therapist about it at all? I think that would help you to find the best way to sort through your feelings.
What I usually do when i'm feeling remorseful about the experience is to just remind myself that I made the best decision that I could in my situation and, after all, you don't get a "re-do" of anything that's already happened so it's best to be accepting and work towards moving on. I think maybe talking to someone would really help you. <3

Yurvette [♥] 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36449 posts
3rd Sep '12
Quoting Squid Kid:" I can't say that I will ever understand the pain of your decision or the amount of guilt that must come ... [snip!] ... <3 I'm so sorry you have to deal with this pain so much. I wish he would get out of your life and allow you to heal."


And all of this!!!

Simply, Mom 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Upland, 11670 posts
3rd Sep '12

I feel bad everyday of my life my story is in my old topics but I was forced into it and I just have had to heal and pray and i know. I'm forgiven and I named my baby that helped too. If u ever need a friend I'm here

Yurvette [♥] 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36449 posts
3rd Sep '12
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Simply, Mom 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Upland, 11670 posts
3rd Sep '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Yurvon [♥]:</b>" So did I. I got called a sick f**k for doing that. Her name would have been Taylor Lynn W. or B. "</blockquote>




Me too and I was told I don't have an angel baby like wtf my baby is in heaven same as yours reguardless of how he/she got there



Mine is Eden Gray

La Reggaetonista Due July 16; 18 kids; Peru 1211 posts
3rd Sep '12

I always felt that it was going to be a girl...I'm too scared to name it. I'm scared to grieve and I'm scared of trying things to make myself feel better because I feel like I shouldn't feel better...I hate him for doing this to me. He kept walking around saying "you killed my baby" last night. I just wanted to die...

Momma Kylee TTC since Nov 2013; 3 kids; Concho, AZ, United States 3310 posts
3rd Sep '12

OP I cant imagine what you're going though. Im sorry you've had to experience this but moving forward is really the only way to heal. It will take time, and dont you ever let anyone tell you how much time it should be. Everyone heals in their own ways, in their own time frame. If I were you, I would definitely seek some help for the grieving process. My thoughts go out to you. I hope you feel better soon.
You ladies gave some really great feedback and advice. Its really nice to see people who arent in this forum just to start drama.

Squid Kid Due July 2; 1 child; 5 angel babies; Tennessee 27541 posts
status 3rd Sep '12
Quoting La Reggaetonista:" I always felt that it was going to be a girl...I'm too scared to name it. I'm scared to grieve and I'm ... [snip!] ... hate him for doing this to me. He kept walking around saying "you killed my baby" last night. I just wanted to die..."

Get a restraining order on him, NOW.

Yurvette [♥] 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36449 posts
3rd Sep '12
Quoting La Reggaetonista:" I always felt that it was going to be a girl...I'm too scared to name it. I'm scared to grieve and I'm ... [snip!] ... hate him for doing this to me. He kept walking around saying "you killed my baby" last night. I just wanted to die..."


My ex would say that to me too. He would text me and say you killed our baby. Dude f**k HIM. You need to grieve. You need to heal. The wound is still fresh. Mine still gets to me sometimes. When my oldest sons father would bring up angel baby and Ethan he would say taht I am a horribel mom because I murdered a kid. All 3 of my pregnancies are with all different guys and Im a horrible mom for that.

Simply, Mom 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Upland, 11670 posts
3rd Sep '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Yurvon [♥]:</b>" My ex would say that to me too. He would text me and say you killed our baby. Dude f**k HIM. You need ... [snip!] ... am a horribel mom because I murdered a kid. All 3 of my pregnancies are with all different guys and Im a horrible mom for that."</blockquote>




I agree . Op u deserve to grieve and it took me til this year to forgive myself my abortion was in 2008 its not overnight but start now. I used to punish myself for it and tell myself I was going to hell and that I'm a murderer and I now know that I am forgiven and i will see Eden one day

La Reggaetonista Due July 16; 18 kids; Peru 1211 posts
3rd Sep '12
Quoting Yurvon [♥]:" My ex would say that to me too. He would text me and say you killed our baby. Dude f**k HIM. You need ... [snip!] ... am a horribel mom because I murdered a kid. All 3 of my pregnancies are with all different guys and Im a horrible mom for that."


Mine were all with different guys too. I'm sorry you went through that...

La Reggaetonista Due July 16; 18 kids; Peru 1211 posts
3rd Sep '12
Quoting Squid Kid:" Get a restraining order on him, NOW."

I can't re-get all of the statementss and evidence that I had at that courtdate...he showed up and they dismissed it because I was the petitioner and not there. I don't know what to do. My best friend lives in the same city as him and I am there a lot, he is screwing one of my ex-friends and makes sure to drive by with her all the time. I don't want to have to live like this.