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back to my routine... kirstiebee Barnsley, United Kingdom 15 posts
17th Sep '12

So I'm going back to work tomorrow, and I feel better than I ever thought I would. I can't wait to just slip back into my normal routine, the time off from work has been nice and was definitely what I needed after I had the abortion on 6th September. I guess if I could give any advice to people who are just about to have an abortion, it would be that you need time to relax, and mourn. I tried to go back to work and keep up happy appearances straight after the procedure but it was just too much, I am one of those people who doesn't have time off work, at all. But I have really benefited from having some me time, and coming to terms with having an angel baby. I also went to see a medium, and I got news that my grandparents up in heaven have my baby, if you believe in that kind of stuff then that really is the best kind of therapy you can get. Some people might be shocked that I am feeling like this so soon after, and what I would say to them, is that I haven't got over it, I have just learnt to deal with it and have managed to tell myself it was the right thing to do. No one can make you feel better about the choices you make but in time you will learn to accept that you made the right choice, I just got there a lot sooner than others. For now I'm feeling refreshed and ready to start living again,watch this space..




Love to everyone going through a hard time at the minute :)

MamaAkemi Due September 5; 1 child; 2 angel babies; Bowie, MD, United States 963 posts
17th Sep '12

I've never thought about going to a medium. Mostly because my pastor taught against it and it's against my faith. I have wondered how you know they are the real deal, because mediums are people and can lie to make money.



I have had two abortions and have had guilt about giving them back. But, I wonder if they forgive me for what I've done. Sometimes I wish I could know. Thank you for your post.

kirstiebee Barnsley, United Kingdom 15 posts
17th Sep '12

Well I was always a sceptic myself, but when I lost my Grandad last year, my mum convinced me to go see one with her. He got everything spot on, there was no way he could have known anything he told us, it was just all so personal. I always believed that the foetus I was carrying had a soul, and knowing that it is in heaven now makes it a lot easier.
I'm not religious at all, so I can't help you with the religion side but I genuinely feel it is worth seeing a local medium at least once, it could help, :)

MamaAkemi Due September 5; 1 child; 2 angel babies; Bowie, MD, United States 963 posts
18th Sep '12

I'm still unsure of finding one. I do believe my little ones had souls and went to heaven. I'm more spiritual than religious, but I do have my beliefs. If I could talk to my little ones, I would tell them that I love them. Every couple of months or so, I get down and think about them. I think about them more often than getting down and depressed. I've written them a letter telling them I miss them and why I made my decision. Maybe one day I'll see a medium.

kirstiebee Barnsley, United Kingdom 15 posts
20th Sep '12

Writing a letter is a good idea, I've never even thought of that :)