I'm sorry. This is going to sound absolutely ridiculous rant. I've tired, I've REALLY tried not to whine on BG lately, but I'm such a mess right now. I can't stop crying, I just want to hold my face in a pillow and fucking sob.
I feel like I'll be alone forever.
I hate looking in the mirror. My face is disgusting. My body is disgusting. Everything about me is just completely awful. I have progressive decay, so I look like a fucking meth head the way my teeth are.
My health is shit, my personality is shit, everything about me is just complete and utter shit.
I just want to have someone there, anyone, even a friend, just to have them be here right now so I wasn't alone.
But I've officially chased off everyone that matters to me.
I have felt lonely, and detattched, but this is something brand new.
I feel like I'm completely fucking empty and I'll never feel a part of something bigger than myself again.
I just really don't want to be alone anymore..I'm so tired of being alone.
You're beautiful! PM me if you need someone to talk to.
<3 You are beautiful no matter what you say.
Quoting Chelsea Dawns Mama:" You're beautiful! PM me if you need someone to talk to."
I'll never feel like it and talking doesn't help.
Have you tried talking to a psychologist or counselor? It sounds like you are severely depressed. I wish I could help! Good luck! <3 pm me if you need someone to chat with!
<blockquote><b>Quoting Chroma Hex [+1]:</b>" I'll never feel like it and talking doesn't help. "</blockquote>
You make think talking doesn't help but sometimes it does and you just don't realize it (: if you need to vent or whine PM me (: