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user banned 2 kids; New York 34017 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting JiLLiAN.:" that's horrible and I hope you get some help. it's not a fun place to be. i was on antidepressants ... [snip!] ... i'm not taking anything and i feel wonderful...and i'm scared to death to have the baby and fall back into that dark hole :("


it's been a long road, and i feel like after having this baby my hard work will all be undone and i'll hate life again. i found meds that worked for me, FINALLY after years.. and i think once my hormones change and everything they won't work anymore. i'm going to get my placenta encapsulated and see if that helps..

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22498 posts
12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mayhem ♥:</b>" Is it like, somewhat normal, for lack of a better word, to have suicidal thoughts? Like...does everyone?"</blockquote>



Every person has thought about it maybe even in passing. What isn't normal is to have a plan. At least when I was in the hospital they told me not to freak out until it starts becoming a plan.

http://www.accountkiller. Minnesota 34665 posts
12th Nov '12

yea. i have very dangerous suicidal ideation issues. I'm on medication to stifle their strength, but I still think about it every day.

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22498 posts
12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting ~*Icat*~:</b>" yea. i have very dangerous suicidal ideation issues. I'm on medication to stifle their strength, but I still think about it every day."</blockquote>




:!:

Dovahkiin 1 child; 1 angel baby; Kentucky 16776 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting JiLLiAN.:" that's horrible and I hope you get some help. it's not a fun place to be. i was on antidepressants ... [snip!] ... i'm not taking anything and i feel wonderful...and i'm scared to death to have the baby and fall back into that dark hole :("


I've been on antidepressants and antianxiety meds for about eight years now. I think I am a person that is incapable of being completely happy.

user banned 2 kids; New York 34017 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting bbbt:" I've been on antidepressants and antianxiety meds for about eight years now. I think I am a person that is incapable of being completely happy. "


that's the worst feeling. do you think the meds are helping at all, or are you willing to try something else?



when i was on celexa i OD'd. :( i just wanted to stop hurting. they made me drink charcoal. ugh.

http://www.accountkiller. Minnesota 34665 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting bbbt:" I've been on antidepressants and antianxiety meds for about eight years now. I think I am a person that is incapable of being completely happy. "


I used to feel this way. It took intensive hospitalization and day treatment for 6 months for me to realize that I CAN be happy and I DESERVE to be happy. But it took a LOT of treatment.

BαtMαɳ Secret Bat Cave, FK, Oman 63142 posts
status 12th Nov '12
Quoting JiLLiAN.:" Batman's had a hard life, man. Not so much now. I was in the psych ward twice and it just makes ... [snip!] ... and it just makes everything worse. Not a fun place to be. But, makes you realize you're really not as crazy as you thought."


Yessir!!! :x:x

Dovahkiin 1 child; 1 angel baby; Kentucky 16776 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting JiLLiAN.:" that's the worst feeling. do you think the meds are helping at all, or are you willing to try something ... [snip!] ... to try something else? when i was on celexa i OD'd. :( i just wanted to stop hurting. they made me drink charcoal. ugh."


Oh yeah, they keep the worst at bay. Before I was put on medication, I was agoraphobic. I couldn't leave the house. I was afraid of everything. The phone. Open windows. Any type of communication with other than my immediate family. I have come FAR. I am now fairly social and hold down a career as a 5th grade teacher. I still have anxiety attacks. I have accepted that I always will. And for the most part, I'm still depressed. I've accepted that, too.

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22498 posts
12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting bbbt:</b>" I've been on antidepressants and antianxiety meds for about eight years now. I think I am a person that is incapable of being completely happy. "</blockquote>




I feel the same way :(

Mrs cree Due November 23; 33 kids; Ontario 1907 posts
12th Nov '12

Yes especially after the lose of my first baby at five months my dogs kept me from taking my life

user banned 2 kids; New York 34017 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting bbbt:" Oh yeah, they keep the worst at bay. Before I was put on medication, I was agoraphobic. I couldn't leave ... [snip!] ... have anxiety attacks. I have accepted that I always will. And for the most part, I'm still depressed. I've accepted that, too. "


life is too hard. :( i wish we could still be like our innocent children who never feel these things. i'm so glad you have come so far, though! that's great!

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22498 posts
12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting bbbt:</b>" Oh yeah, they keep the worst at bay. Before I was put on medication, I was agoraphobic. I couldn't leave ... [snip!] ... have anxiety attacks. I have accepted that I always will. And for the most part, I'm still depressed. I've accepted that, too. "</blockquote>




I feel the same way but I don't feel the medications aren't working. I don't talk to anybody other than immediate family. I don't go anywhere but to therapy appointments. I don't drive.



I'm proud of you for being a teacher!

user banned 2 kids; Bat Cave, North Carolina 64587 posts
12th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting JiLLiAN.:</b>" it's been a long road, and i feel like after having this baby my hard work will all be undone and i'll ... [snip!] ... my hormones change and everything they won't work anymore. i'm going to get my placenta encapsulated and see if that helps.."</blockquote>



I just went gay for your avi

user banned 2 kids; New York 34017 posts
12th Nov '12
Quoting Mayhem ♥:" <blockquote><b>Quoting JiLLiAN.:</b>" it's been a long road, and i feel like after ... [snip!] ... anymore. i'm going to get my placenta encapsulated and see if that helps.."</blockquote> I just went gay for your avi"

lmao.