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Starving *Trigger* mehhhhh Minnesota 368 posts
14th Nov '12

As some saw, I was in the ER this morning receiving fluids and nutrients.



My SO just brought up something I didn't even fathom.



I was severely anorexic before I got pregnant, with a BMI of 15.3 at my lowest weight. He thinks I was subconsciously starving myself. The thought terrifies me. I've done so well lately. I've been eating, but maybe only the bare minimum without noticing.
He can't monitor me all the time, and that scares me.



I always figured I'd relapse at least one more time but I thought I wouldn't be providing for a fetus when I did.



I feel like the lowest scum of the earth.

ElleBelle (32 weeks) Due September 22; 1 child; 1 angel baby; Rio Rancho, NM, United States 21505 posts
14th Nov '12

I'm sorry mama, are you seeing a therapist? Don't beat yourself up. Do the best you can for your LO, and good luck

mehhhhh Minnesota 368 posts
14th Nov '12
Quoting Just Ames:" I'm so sorry. Battling an ED is as hard as any addiction. Are you getting therapy for this? If not, maybe it's time to reach out and tap into some resources."


I've been going to therapy for it for almost 2 years.

SpaceCowgirl Due December 21; 3 kids; Oregon 20240 posts
14th Nov '12

Sorry mama. Could you try keeping a food journal to help remind you to eat?

That Girl. 2 kids; Florida 4109 posts
14th Nov '12

<blockquote><b>Quoting SpaceCowgirl:</b>" Sorry mama. Could you try keeping a food journal to help remind you to eat?"</blockquote>




This sounds like a good idea. Good luck momma.