Tuesday November 20th 2012
Rest in Peace Grandma
On Sunday we got the call we all dreaded.. My grandmother was given till Thanksgiving day to live. She had a heart attack a few weeks ago. It was her 5th one but this one made her heart so weak. She has gone through a lot of suffering the past few weeks and we all knew deep down this was it. We all remained in denial until the doctors said her organs were failing on Sunday. She decided to sign off to refuse further treatment on Sunday night. She knew it was time.. Monday morning we got more notice that it could be any where from a few hours or a few days. I informed my job and got Tuesday and Wednesday off work so we could drive down and see her one final time. I wanted her to see my son one last time before she passed. She always talked about how when she missed him she would just remember when he was 2 weeks old(she came up from Texas to meet him) he was laying on the bed and they just stared into each others eyes for the longest time. It was such an amazing bond and remembering that moment brings tears to my eyes. We took off Tuesday morning at 7am to make the long drive from Illinois to Texas. We got 7 hours into the drive when I finally broke down for the first time and I started to cry and Silas started to whine in the back seat in his sleep. 10 minutes later we got the call.. She had taken her last breath.
I tried to stay strong and not cry. My main focus was calming my mom down. I have barely cried until tonight. I just feel like I'm losing it tonight.
Knowing that technically its now Thanksgiving I just can't help but think of how thankful I am to have had this women as my grandmother. She practically raised me (my mom was barely 16 when she had me and was still in her wild days.) I have always been my grandma's pride and joy. She was closer to me than any of my cousins since none of them were raised around her. I miss her more than anything already even though I have this deep down gut feeling that she's here with me and my son right now. I pray that she watches over him as he grows.
You will never be forgotten and will always be in my heart. May you rest in peace. One day we will be together again.
I'm so sorry for your loss. :(
I'm sorry for your loss :(
Sorry for your loss :(
Made me tear up so much, reminded me of my favorite aunt.
:( Sorry for your loss!
I'm so sorry for your loss. My grandma passed away last week, several days after having a heart attack and deciding not to pursue further treatment. It's really rough, especially this time of year. My thoughts are with you and your family.
Quoting ♥Rach♥:" I'm so sorry for your loss. My grandma passed away last week, several days after having a heart attack ... [snip!] ... not to pursue further treatment. It's really rough, especially this time of year. My thoughts are with you and your family."
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss as well. At least we know they aren't suffering anymore. Its been very hard today. Especially with my grandpa being here. Even though they separated when I was a baby he still deeply loves that woman. He kept picking on my mom about how her mashed potatoes will never compare to my grandmas lol. He shared so many great memories with us and held my son.
Thank you everyone. Its been a rough couple days and I'm sure there are more to come. But I have to stay strong.
i'm sorry :( my grandma passed on 7/31, this was our first thanksgiving without her. so hard
<blockquote><b>Quoting Sami&Baby Silas:</b>" I'm so sorry to hear about your loss as well. At least we know they aren't suffering anymore. Its been ... [snip!] ... held my son. Thank you everyone. Its been a rough couple days and I'm sure there are more to come. But I have to stay strong."</blockquote>
Thank you. I am grateful she isnt suffering or in pain. When she was in the hospital on Tuesday, she was so miserable. they moved her to hospice on wednesday and she had a few lucid, peaceful hours before she went to sleep. I'm sorry for your grandpa. :(. My grandpa died in a car accident almost 50 years ago. My grandma was buried next to him. :'(. It's definitely been a rough couple days. I hope things get better and that pain starts to sting a little less.