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Really lonely *trigger warning* LumpySpacePrincess 2 kids; New Zealand 17060 posts
2nd Jan '13

I am really lonely. I am having a really hard time right now and trying to deal with some serious shite, and it feels like I have no one.



My mum makes me feel bad every time she comes around. I will ask if she wants to hang out and she takes that as take the kids and leave me alone. So she does. I can't remember the last time my mother hugged me. I had a mental breakdown and had to go to hospital and still she can't hug me.



This will be the third day I haven't eaten. I can't brig myself to cos honestly, I hate myself that much. I stared at a protein shake for half an hour yesterday then threw it down the sink. I feel really sick and I know it's cos I'm not eating anything. But there's no one to talk to. SO doens't know what to say so when we get into serious conversations about my mental health and my issues he cracks jokes. I know that's just his way but I need some real support. My mum is always telling me that if I was skinny like my sister I would be happy so she's no help, she would probably encourage me to not eat.



And I have no friends.



I'm really lonely and I feel like I'm in a deep dark hole that I can't get out of. :cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry:

Pey and Trista's mommy Due January 5; 2 kids; 2 angel babies; Houston, Texas 42502 posts
2nd Jan '13

I remember the hospital set something up for therapy. Have you gotten to go yet? I'm sorryyou are having such a hard time.

HopingforaMiracle 1 child; USA 22477 posts
status 2nd Jan '13

I'm very sorry

Michael Myers 2 kids; Slaughter, Louisiana 3408 posts
2nd Jan '13

Aw <3
I know how this feels all too well. Im sorry :(
Try writing A journal. All your feelings, thoughts, or every time you're feeling lonely. It really does help. If it doesn't, have you tried therapy?

misanthrope 2 kids; Ramona, California 15431 posts
2nd Jan '13

I'm very sorry. Have you thought about looking into a support group for people with eating disorders?

BeccaSauraus 1 child; Baton Rouge, Louisiana 1869 posts
2nd Jan '13

Aww, LSP. You have me love <3
I wish I could hug you irl.
Eat, deary. I had an eating disorder in high school, if you need to talk you can pm me.

[JadeLee] 1 child; Minnesota 12190 posts
2nd Jan '13

Do they allow you to be admitted for med adjustments where you are?
Over here if someone is suicidal and goes in they will generally admit them willingly and put them on a hold.

Michael Myers 2 kids; Slaughter, Louisiana 3408 posts
2nd Jan '13
Quoting Old Greg:" Aww, LSP. You have me love <3 I wish I could hug you irl. Eat, deary. I had an eating disorder in high school, if you need to talk you can pm me."

So did I :/
You can Pm me as well anytime.

BeccaSauraus 1 child; Baton Rouge, Louisiana 1869 posts
2nd Jan '13
Quoting Michael Myers:" So did I :/ You can Pm me as well anytime. "


Thanks momma.
I overcame anorexia and now I'm a chef :3

LumpySpacePrincess 2 kids; New Zealand 17060 posts
2nd Jan '13
Quoting Mel & a girl named Pey:" I remember the hospital set something up for therapy. Have you gotten to go yet? I'm sorryyou are having such a hard time."


Yeah I went to emergency psych services and they upped my meds. Don't have another appointment for two weeks in order to see if the meds do anything

Michael Myers 2 kids; Slaughter, Louisiana 3408 posts
2nd Jan '13
Quoting Old Greg:" Thanks momma. I overcame anorexia and now I'm a chef :3"


Congratulations! Thats a really huge accomplishment, you should be so proud of yourself.

Pey and Trista's mommy Due January 5; 2 kids; 2 angel babies; Houston, Texas 42502 posts
2nd Jan '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting LumpySpacePrincess:</b>" Yeah I went to emergency psych services and they upped my meds. Don't have another appointment for two weeks in order to see if the meds do anything"</blockquote>




Well I really hope they get things situated for you. I wish I could do something to help other than listen when you need it.

LumpySpacePrincess 2 kids; New Zealand 17060 posts
2nd Jan '13

I tried writing a journal. I found my journal and I was going to start up again but then I saw that all I wrote in it was how I was shit for eating, and how much I hated myself. Brought me even further down.

Michael Myers 2 kids; Slaughter, Louisiana 3408 posts
2nd Jan '13
Quoting LumpySpacePrincess:" I tried writing a journal. I found my journal and I was going to start up again but then I saw that all ... [snip!] ... but then I saw that all I wrote in it was how I was shit for eating, and how much I hated myself. Brought me even further down."

Try not to think about it anymore. Do something to distract you for a while, like cleaning, drawing, playing with your kids, listening to music that brings back good memories, movies or shows you like. I hope you feel better soon.

BeccaSauraus 1 child; Baton Rouge, Louisiana 1869 posts
2nd Jan '13
Quoting Michael Myers:" Congratulations! Thats a really huge accomplishment, you should be so proud of yourself."

Thank you. I am. I hope I can help people overcome it themselves one day.