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************ Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5873 posts
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HungryHippo 2 kids; Missouri 11981 posts
4th Jan '13

I have the same urges sometimes and it drives me crazy
I haven't cut in almost 4 years

Naturally Alternative 34 kids; 2 angel babies; Lafayette, Louisiana 5657 posts
4th Jan '13

It's like an addiction I imagine... people who haven't smoked in forever randomly get the craving.



I'm bipolar also and I haven't cut in a while but still randomly reallly want to for no reason. Definitely sounds like cycling. Try to keep your mind busy on other things and hopefully it'll pass. *hug*

May♥ 1 child; Texas 9167 posts
4th Jan '13

I haven't cut in about... 20 months. But sometimes when I start getting in to a funk I really want too.



I really get what you are saying about"Wanting to remember what it feels like."




Killing myself hasn't even crossed my mind since LO was born.but cutting does.

ERMAGHERD BEEDS! 17 kids; Philadelphia, Pennsylvania 4099 posts
4th Jan '13

I have the same urges sometimes and I haven't cut in years. But I've also been sober for years and drugs still pop into my head top. I just treat it like any other addiction though... Sometimes it get so bad with cutting I feel like my skin is crawling. I hate it

Andi+Andy=Marley+1 2 kids; Fredericksburg, Virginia 4564 posts
4th Jan '13

It's been 4 years since the last time I cut myself and I get the urge to cut myself a few time a year for no reason other then I miss the feeling and process of cutting. If I knew where my husband kept the razors is probably do it :/

Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5873 posts
status 4th Jan '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting M

Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5873 posts
status 4th Jan '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Cheeks mom:</b>" I have the same urges sometimes and I haven't cut in years. But I've also been sober for years and drugs ... [snip!] ... treat it like any other addiction though... Sometimes it get so bad with cutting I feel like my skin is crawling. I hate it"</blockquote>




I know what you mean I am a recovering addict as well.
I've been clean for quite some time but I still have the urge to do a pill every now and then.

Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5873 posts
status 4th Jan '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting May ♥:</b>" I haven't cut in about... 20 months. But sometimes when I start getting in to a funk I really want too. ... [snip!] ... about"Wanting to remember what it feels like." Killing myself hasn't even crossed my mind since LO was born.but cutting does."</blockquote>



I never wanted to kill myself, I just like cutting myself.
It sounds weird when I say it but I like to watch the blood pour out.
It always fascinated me how such a tiny blade could split my skin so easily.
Gahh, that sounds so morbid. :oops:

ERMAGHERD BEEDS! 17 kids; Philadelphia, Pennsylvania 4099 posts
4th Jan '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Cheeks mom:</b>" I have the same urges sometimes and I haven't ... [snip!] ... am a recovering addict as well. I've been clean for quite some time but I still have the urge to do a pill every now and then."</blockquote>




It feels the exact same way, like they're both cravings, but since cutting is a more physical thing, for some reason the cravings feel worse. I was addicted to the entire process when I was using, and I think with cutting its the same. But honestly even thinking about it this much makes me wanna puke. Btw I'm bi polar too! I never thought I was until after I had the baby, it's made me hyper aware of my mood swings

Andraya DeCouto Due May 24 (boy); Turlock, California 190 posts
4th Jan '13

am diagnosed the exact same thing. Wen to many different hospitals for them to even figure out what was wrong with me. I have had those urges before. And I am off of my meds now for over 2 years. I'm actually better without them. I was always either drugged out to where I literally couldn't think or it would make me more angry and flip out. Just try to get your mind on something else. I have had those thoughts in the last couple of months. I'm not depressed, but I do want to feel it again. Weird, but I just think about other things. But just don't give into the feeling, because none the less it's still bad to harm yourself. Hope everything works out for you to get your mind off of it.

Naturally Alternative 34 kids; 2 angel babies; Lafayette, Louisiana 5657 posts
4th Jan '13
Quoting Ole' No Name:" <blockquote><b>Quoting M
Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5873 posts
status 4th Jan '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting M

Naturally Alternative 34 kids; 2 angel babies; Lafayette, Louisiana 5657 posts
4th Jan '13
Quoting Ole' No Name:" <blockquote><b>Quoting M
Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5873 posts
status 4th Jan '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting M