It's been 2 days now, and it feels like forever. I don't miss him, YET.
But he was my rock, he knew me better than anyone else. He was basically the only person I had, and I know that's sad.
Even though he treated me terrible at times, he also treated me like a princess at times as well, and I know it's the drugs that ruined our relationship
He had my name all down his ribs, and he got 'VOID' in big red letters over it yesterday. Its kinda like a slap in the face, I wish he would of just gotten it covered up. And of course his family and friends are all over fb, liking the pic, talking so much shit on me.& they won't listen to a damn thing about me finding out he was shooting up, how he is abusive, etc.. It just drives me crazy that I'm made out to be the psycho bitch always and he's always right. I don't know what I'm gonna do when I find out he gets with another girl, it's gonna make me go crazy, last time, I literally started crying so hard I started hyperventilating when I found out. I know this isn't normal, and I'm on meds, and I'm gonna get back into counselling as well. I deactivated my fb account for the time being.
OH and btw, today is our 5 year anniversary.
Jan 17th ( I'm actually waiting for an appt with a good artist & not just getting a crappy red void over his name) I'm going to get his name covered with flowers (it's on my shoulder blade) ad I'm gonna get the serenity prayer on my other shoulder blade, it's gonna be gorgeous and a new beginning I hope.
Just need words of wisdom to stay strong right now
Quoting ♥crazybitch:" http://forum.baby-gaga.com/about2423394.html#53323348 It's been 2 days now, and it feels like forever. ... [snip!] ... other shoulder blade, it's gonna be gorgeous and a new beginning I hope. Just need words of wisdom to stay strong right now "
putting "void" over your name will make him look like the king of all douchbags to every woman who ever sees him shirtless. Would YOU ever sleep wkith someone who would do that? I certainly wouldn't.
wait to get yours covered up. Mourn over the loss of the relationship first... then get it done when you're ready to move on.
What an asshole. And all of his friends/family. Hopefully having him out of your life will give you a chance to grow and become a better stronger person, and then in a year or two when he's still doing the same shit, and your life is a million times better, he'll feel like shit and you'll be too busy being awesome to care