I didnt have any problems with ppd or baby blues when I had my daighter I was just so happy to meet her.she is now 7 1/2 months old and for the past 3 months I feel like somethong is really wrong like im goinh crazy. My hair is falling out! Im been feeling very alone, im so tired all the time no matter how much or little sleep I get. Im cpletely emotionaless towards my boyfriend "father of my daughter" all we do is fight, I feel like i hate him. I cant remember the last tome I actually wanted him, kiss him or even sleep on bed with him let alone the last time any of that happened. I have no sexual desires at all! I can no longer handle my daughters crying it drives me to the point of crashing, crying n yelling makes me feel crazy n I feel awful for throwing such a fit about a tiny cry for a moment. I just feel lile my boyfriend is in one ear n my daughter is in the other. As weird as it sounds I feel like they r teaming up against me to see who can drive me nuts first. Sometimes I find myself in a ball holding my ears to block the sound begging for it all to stop n go away. And sometimes I wish I could either run away n never come back or I that I wouldnt wake up after I fall asleep. Dont get me wrong I love my daughter so much n I hate muself for these feelings n thoughts but they kust wont go away. Help!? P.s. Im like 14 weeks pregnant again!
you need to talk to a therapist asap. Also, it does not help any that you are 14 weeks pregnant, i know its too late now, but, talk about bad timing.
I dont have time for anything or myself. all my family li es 10 hours away except my mom n she has not taken my daughter once since ive had her and my boyfriend only takes care of her when im working n I work over 40 hrs a week. I am never alone. I shower with my daughter I sleep I eat I get dressed. I feel so much pressure on full time job n full time mom with no help. Ny boyfriend is too worried eith hanging out wuth his low life friends n I cant afford day care ot a baby sitter
Quoting babygirl_2491:" I dont have time for anything or myself. all my family li es 10 hours away except my mom n she has not ... [snip!] ... with no help. Ny boyfriend is too worried eith hanging out wuth his low life friends n I cant afford day care ot a baby sitter"
i know its hard. its called motherhood. you have to buck up and take care of your child. it wont be this way forever, as she gets older, she will become more and more independent
I have bucked up n I do take care of my child. I never mistreat my daughter or ignore he needs but thats one of the problems. I am either home with my daughter or working. I dont friends or family fo come over n help me I do everything myself. I dont get a couple hours of freedom once a month. Im not trying to take offense but I was asking for advice on whether or not you might think its ppd not on my parenting skills n im not meaning that crappy im just saying I dont need somebody telling me to buck up n take care of my baby when I clearly had just stated I do