Amelia [20 wks Boy!] Due July 20; 4 angel babies; Tallahassee, Florida 14002 postsstatus 25th Jan '13
Quoting BG Secrets:" He did share that he wasn't the only one. He didn't name names. But he recounted specific instances ... [snip!] ... irrationally probably, that 'what if someone i know finds this and reads this and realizes'. I still have a lot of shame."
As others have said, find a professional to talk to about this. There is no shame in your secret but this is not easy to internalize. It's his shame (your grandfather), not yours.