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help getting over divorce *B*~ Mommy~ 1 child; Jackson, Missouri 7419 posts
31st Jan '13

I really feel like I should be in a support group... My name is betty and I want to admitt sometimes I miss the pretend life I used to have. You may not understand..but what I miss is what I pretended was real. I get sad because I miss it but know it was never real which means I can never go back. :(



We've been separated for about 2yrs..divorced since oct.
We had problems forever...I loved him and thought maybe he'd change . Maybe after our son...but he grew more distant...I tried..he didn't....he deployed...lied and cheated...so I said no more.



I hate that I love him...that I miss parts...he wasn't a great dad...still isn't...



I refuse to go back no matter how badly I want to .....its hard to be stronger than your heart...even when all commom sense knows its best.

Vile Tramp 2 kids; New York 32363 posts
31st Jan '13

I understand exactly what you are saying.



I don't miss my husband, I miss who I wanted him to be. All the dreams, hopes and goals I had for US. But I know they would not, will not, nor ever were real.



I hate the fact, that I don't HATE my ex husband. After everything he's done to me, and put me through, I can't hate him because in my mind, I remember the fantastical dream of HIM I had.



I fell in love with a beautiful liar, and our marriage on the inside, was horrible, but in my mind, it was perfect.



And now that I've made myself look crazy. :lol: I'm Maddie.

*B*~ Mommy~ 1 child; Jackson, Missouri 7419 posts
31st Jan '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Vile Tramp:</b>" I understand exactly what you are saying. I don't miss my husband, I miss who I wanted him to be. All ... [snip!] ... on the inside, was horrible, but in my mind, it was perfect. And now that I've made myself look crazy. :lol: I'm Maddie. "</blockquote>




Welcome to the crazy club lol



I hate when I think maybe...maybe another chance....but I know all it will be is better lies...more manipulation...not good for my son. It would be me thinking and never trusting...possibly cheating myself cuz I know or think he is. And that is not who I am...I don't cheat..and I don't want my son to think I condone such...



I just have to trust and pray that there is someone out there right for me.....but I wonder often where are you?



For now life is better...not money wise at all but as a family...( living w my dad) it is better for me and my son.