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Can somebody.... Rain (aka Mama) 3 kids; Monroe, Georgia 6487 posts
1st Feb '13

Make time stop for me? Just for tonight. At least for a little while. It can stop at 11:39pm, I'm not picky. Just don't let the calendar turn to February 2nd. Not yet. I'm not ready.



I'm not ready to say "It's been two years since my Seth passed away". I'm not ready. I'm not ready to say "Two years ago, one third of my heart went dark." I don't want to. I'm not ready to say "Two years ago, Aiden and Serena lost their older brother". I can't. I can't. I'm not ready to think "It's been two years. Two long effing years. Two YEARS since I've seen my beautiful boy. Since I saw that gorgeous smile. Since his eyes conned me into giving him yet another cookie. Since I had him tell me to wait because he needed one more hug." TWO YEARS. I don't want it. I don't want to have to fight to appear composed and put together tomorrow. I don't want it. I just want to lay down on my bed with Aiden tucked in one arm, Seth tucked in the other, and Serena laying across my chest again.



It's not fair that the world just keeps moving on like nothing was lost. So, if I can't make time go backwards, someone please just press the pause button. Just for a moment. I don't want to have to deal with tomorrow.

user banned (boy); 2 kids; Fucking, Austria 36337 posts
1st Feb '13

:cry:



*hugs*

I'm His Amy He's My Rory 2 kids; Caldwell, Idaho 49340 posts
1st Feb '13

I love you. Just a little longer.

Sunset dream (boy); 1 child; Florida 1292 posts
1st Feb '13

I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Hugs, mama.

lamr - 02-08-13-21 2 kids; Crazytown, ON, Canada 6007 posts
1st Feb '13

I'm so sorry Hun. I wish I could give you a hug.

user banned 1 child; Portland, Maine 20613 posts
1st Feb '13

No parent should ever have to go through this pain. I'm sorry :(

Ryleigh's Mama ♥ 17 kids; West Virginia 10703 posts
1st Feb '13
Quoting Rain (aka Mama):" Make time stop for me? Just for tonight. At least for a little while. It can stop at 11:39pm, I'm not ... [snip!] ... time go backwards, someone please just press the pause button. Just for a moment. I don't want to have to deal with tomorrow."


I know you hear this a lot, but I'm truly sorry for the hurt you're feeling. Hugs*

SherryandMatt Due February 15 (boy); 1 child; 6 angel babies; Arizona 4001 posts
1st Feb '13

I'm so sorry I can't even imagine. Brings me to tears to read it but can not begin to understand how it feels to live it. Bless you and your family. And I hope it stops till you are ready for it:(

melanie-mommy of 2 3 kids; Mifflintown, Pennsylvania 4689 posts
1st Feb '13

i'm so sorry for your pain mama!! i cannot imagine what that must feel like. i wish their was something i could do for you tonight. do you mind if i pray for you? would it help to talk about your son or what happened? i'm so very sorry!!!

Kelly&Coralie 1 child; Rochester, NY, United States 56009 posts
1st Feb '13

Oh mama. I'm sharing your pain tonight. I don't want to believe that it has been 2 years. 2 birthdays, 2 xmases, 2 summers



It's not fair! It's just not.



*hugs*.



I've been watching the video I made for him last year. Cora watched it too and I was glad to get to tell her all about him. Well, as much as I know.



RIP angel. You have so much love here on earth.

Roo & Sophie's mama 2 kids; Denton, Texas 9318 posts
1st Feb '13

***hugs***

Roo & Sophie's mama 2 kids; Denton, Texas 9318 posts
1st Feb '13

***hugs***

Mandi Lee 16 kids; Oregon 801 posts
1st Feb '13

wow, it doesnt seem like it has been 2 years. it has been so long since i have been on here, but i remember your story, and it still breaks my heart. stay strong, but remember its ok to fall apart. the 4th will be 5 years for me. my prayers are with you!

user banned 2 kids; Hamilton, Ontario 19220 posts
2nd Feb '13

Thinking of you love.




RIP sweet Seth.