Make time stop for me? Just for tonight. At least for a little while. It can stop at 11:39pm, I'm not picky. Just don't let the calendar turn to February 2nd. Not yet. I'm not ready.
I'm not ready to say "It's been two years since my Seth passed away". I'm not ready. I'm not ready to say "Two years ago, one third of my heart went dark." I don't want to. I'm not ready to say "Two years ago, Aiden and Serena lost their older brother". I can't. I can't. I'm not ready to think "It's been two years. Two long effing years. Two YEARS since I've seen my beautiful boy. Since I saw that gorgeous smile. Since his eyes conned me into giving him yet another cookie. Since I had him tell me to wait because he needed one more hug." TWO YEARS. I don't want it. I don't want to have to fight to appear composed and put together tomorrow. I don't want it. I just want to lay down on my bed with Aiden tucked in one arm, Seth tucked in the other, and Serena laying across my chest again.
It's not fair that the world just keeps moving on like nothing was lost. So, if I can't make time go backwards, someone please just press the pause button. Just for a moment. I don't want to have to deal with tomorrow.
I love you. Just a little longer.
I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Hugs, mama.
I'm so sorry Hun. I wish I could give you a hug.
No parent should ever have to go through this pain. I'm sorry :(
Quoting Rain (aka Mama):" Make time stop for me? Just for tonight. At least for a little while. It can stop at 11:39pm, I'm not ... [snip!] ... time go backwards, someone please just press the pause button. Just for a moment. I don't want to have to deal with tomorrow."
I know you hear this a lot, but I'm truly sorry for the hurt you're feeling. Hugs*
I'm so sorry I can't even imagine. Brings me to tears to read it but can not begin to understand how it feels to live it. Bless you and your family. And I hope it stops till you are ready for it:(
i'm so sorry for your pain mama!! i cannot imagine what that must feel like. i wish their was something i could do for you tonight. do you mind if i pray for you? would it help to talk about your son or what happened? i'm so very sorry!!!
Oh mama. I'm sharing your pain tonight. I don't want to believe that it has been 2 years. 2 birthdays, 2 xmases, 2 summers
It's not fair! It's just not.
I've been watching the video I made for him last year. Cora watched it too and I was glad to get to tell her all about him. Well, as much as I know.
RIP angel. You have so much love here on earth.
wow, it doesnt seem like it has been 2 years. it has been so long since i have been on here, but i remember your story, and it still breaks my heart. stay strong, but remember its ok to fall apart. the 4th will be 5 years for me. my prayers are with you!
Thinking of you love.
RIP sweet Seth.