Feeling down (AS) Platypus 1 child; Massachusetts 2491 postsstatus 24th Feb '13
I had my abortion january 10th.. Logically, I know it was the right decision... I wasn't sure if the baby was my boyfriends, or my ex boyfriends (my boyfriend and I were on a break, having a fight, and I went to my ex.. long story short..). I'm about 98% sure it was my ex's, judging by the dates. My ex is kind of an a*****e, and I stopped talking to him after he didnt know why I was still sad (two weeks later) after the abortion, and that he said I was too quick to want to keep the pregnancy and it scared him and he wondered if I thought about doing it just to keep him (which he said he regretted saying. whatever. fleeting thought or not, its still shitty to think that). We got into a huge fight about it... My friend's girlfriend just had her baby yesterday, and its making me kind of sad that I could of been in her shoes in august... And i keep thinking about my ex and how much i miss him, but i seriously have horrible feelings of dislike and even hate towards him... I dont know. I feel all conflicted and .. blah..
[Doe Eyed Dirty Lurker] 18 kids; noneya, TN, United States 3245 posts24th Feb '13
*hugs* I'm sorry. I hope it gets easier for you.