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anxiety is taking over my life.. Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5829 posts
24th Feb '13

I guess this is just a vent, I dunno.
I have had extreme anxiety/panic attacks almost my whole life and I started zoloft when I was 14 it worked wonders and I felt normal again.
I got pregnant when I was 18 and stopped taking it.
My daughter is now 14 months old and I just tured 20, my anxiety is back 100x worse and its taking over my life.
To the point I cannot function in everyday situations and its killing me.
I've put off seeing a doctor for too long and I think today was my breaking point. I'm finding a doctor tomorrow so I can get back on my meds.
I'm sick of feeling like this, I'm always on edge and I feel so confused and unable to concentrate I just want to be myself again!
Anyway just looking for someone to help/support me through this because I have no one in my corner and I feel so alone.



Thanks for reading and please respond if you'd like to help, and sorry for typos I'm using my phone.

Noah_Jeffery 1 child; Mesa, Arizona 909 posts
24th Feb '13
Quoting Ole' No Name:" I guess this is just a vent, I dunno. I have had extreme anxiety/panic attacks almost my whole life and ... [snip!] ... and I feel so alone. Thanks for reading and please respond if you'd like to help, and sorry for typos I'm using my phone."


Girl :) You are strong for making it as long as you did without meds its not easy!!! ... I am not going to shove my relgion on you .. but maybe this song will help . Plum aactually wrote this song becuase of her anxiety in high school and how bad she had it.. hiding in teh bathrooms trying to breathe. You can do it :) mama hang tough and good luck I hope u get relief soon! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ylnx0NA9X4

user banned 3 kids; Washington 15083 posts
24th Feb '13

You are doing the right thing, contacting a dr.



I don't know what I can do to help. Do you need to talk?

Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5829 posts
24th Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Noah_Jeffery:</b>" Girl :) You are strong for making it as long as you did without meds its not easy!!! ... I am not going ... [snip!] ... breathe. You can do it :) mama hang tough and good luck I hope u get relief soon! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ylnx0NA9X4"</blockquote>




Thank you! Ill listen to the song later DD is sleeping beside me, don't wanna wake her :)
I've just started having these problems in the past 6 months but its progressively getting worse so I think meds are the only way I can gain my life back. I want to be the best mom I can and I feel like this is making it hard for me to really do that.

Noah_Jeffery 1 child; Mesa, Arizona 909 posts
24th Feb '13
Quoting Ole' No Name:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Noah_Jeffery:</b>" Girl :) You are strong for making it as ... [snip!] ... way I can gain my life back. I want to be the best mom I can and I feel like this is making it hard for me to really do that."


Then :) THATS what you need to do , if you think being on meds is gojnbg to change the type of other you are it wont , expect make you more sane lol :) I know people who deal with anixety and its not easy , your not doing anything wrong , and your strong and this will just make your stronger , every bump in the road has a good part in the end! Talk to your doc and get on meds :)!!! You need to be happy !

Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5829 posts
24th Feb '13

I<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" You are doing the right thing, contacting a dr. I don't know what I can do to help. Do you need to talk?"</blockquote>



I guess just someone to talk to and reassure me I'm not dying when the panic is overwhelming.
I just feel like I'm dying and nobody understands why I can't just stop thinking about it.

j0des(+2) 18 kids; Virginia 5095 posts
24th Feb '13

I coped really well without meds finally before my bubbz..then, his anxiety became my anxiety(he is on the spectrum but we dunno much yet). Now that I have a 3yo, and a 12 month old, its getting much worse.



Im hoping that once I stop nursing and my hormones die down that I can get back to where I was, even if it takes meds. Im like crawling in my skin..especially when theyre both balls to the wall on opposite ends of the house.. I try to keep myself busy though, when they arent keeping me busy.. Im doing theraputic things like art projects and reading. A glass of wine doesnt hurt either lol



I hope it gets better/easier for you. Alot of people dont understand, but, you arent alone.

user banned 3 kids; Washington 15083 posts
25th Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" I<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" You are doing the right thing, ... [snip!] ... when the panic is overwhelming. I just feel like I'm dying and nobody understands why I can't just stop thinking about it."</blockquote>




Well, you aren't dying. I guess maybe, you could think of it as the opposite? You are alive therefore you have these feelings and emotions. Have you noticed a particular time of the day, setting, place that makes your anxiety and/or panic worse? Have you tried talking yourself up into going somewhere, what it's going to be like, what you are going to do once you get there- not to make it worse, but so you know you have control and what your plan of action is so you can get through it as normally as possible. Again, I think you are doing amazing. The first step is to recognize there is a problem and second to act to receive treatment. If you ever need someone to talk to, you can PM me also.

Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5829 posts
25th Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" I<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ ... [snip!] ... recognize there is a problem and second to act to receive treatment. If you ever need someone to talk to, you can PM me also."</blockquote>




I usually do okay during the day but around 3-4pm that's when it gets bad.
I got in with a local physiologist today, I go for intake march 21st but jeeez that feels so far away.

user banned 3 kids; Washington 15083 posts
25th Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting ... [snip!] ... that's when it gets bad. I got in with a local physiologist today, I go for intake march 21st but jeeez that feels so far away."</blockquote>



It's not that far away. 3 weeks. You can do it!

Ole' No Name TTC since Oct 2013; 1 child; Singapore, Singapore 5829 posts
26th Feb '13

<blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Ole' No Name:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting ♫ ... [snip!] ... go for intake march 21st but jeeez that feels so far away."</blockquote> It's not that far away. 3 weeks. You can do it!"</blockquote>




I did okay yesterday and today I've kept myself busy so that's helping.
MIL gave me some 1mg kolonapin (sp?) In case its too much on a day before I see the doctor. I know that's illegal and all but honestly just having them makes me feel better even without taking it.
I know that sounds silly, but I guess to me it gives me comfort to know I can take that and it'll make the anxiety go away shortly.