37 weeks along on the 12th if my body hadn't miscarried. It seems like the closer I get to what would be my EDD the harder it becomes to accept. I should be looking down at a giant belly having baby trying to break my ribs right now but instead I am without that and I have no child in my belly trying to escape. I hate that I have a broken body and I am truely trying to do what I can to get it better but it is going to take awhile.. but that is time and time I don't have. My kidneys fail a bit more each year and get worse with each wrong med I take that tries to shut down my kidneys or if I become dehydrated or if I eat or drink the wrong things.
Im sorry I kind of felt the same way a few years ago when I had an ectopic. If it wouldn't have been an ectopic my due date would have been June 21 2011. Which ironically is the first day of summer. I couldn't help but be extremely sad when the due date came around. I lost one of my tubes and was petrified that I would never conceive again. Try not to be too upset there is still hope to get prehnabt I did and im probably getting induced tomorrow. I wish u the best of luck.