What's wrong, flat face? TTC since Jul 2012; 1 child; 3 angel babies; Texas 13678 posts
30th Apr '13
Quoting thisunrest:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Let the rain fall:</b>" I don't think I would call this an addiction. ... [snip!] ... I agree with part of this, but IMO comparing OP to a rapist isn't a very good analogy. It's messed up."

Its all I could think of. I was like what kind of person like that feeling of control?! and that is what I came up with.

TaeganElise35wks1day Due September 25 (girl); 1 child; 2 angel babies; Atlanta, Georgia 1862 posts
status 30th Apr '13

I must say.....I have nothing to say. I have had more than needed, but not near double digits! All wanted but just couldn't have them due to wrong timing, sickness of my son...etc. And like OP said what if you mess up your body to the point of no return and they day you do want a child you can't. I have been trying for ( in 2months ) a year for my second and last and I have yet to conceive......the anxious momma in me says its the abortions. Yes, you may want to speak to someone about this issue!

michele is expecting Due October 28 (boy); New York, New York 319 posts
3rd May '13
Quoting Just Ames:" Not the right forum for this dick bag."


i agree

Dovahkiin 1 child; 1 angel baby; Kentucky 16776 posts
11th May '13

Yeah, I've had 24.

Dovahkiin 1 child; 1 angel baby; Kentucky 16776 posts
11th May '13

It will never be illegal.

Captain Obvious 2 kids; Havana, Cuba 25634 posts
11th May '13

:o my legs aren't nasty!

I ♥k e n n a d i Due January 6; 1 child; North Carolina 8 posts
5th Jun '13
Quoting Helen C.:" There aren't many abortion forums out there that are protected. A lot of them get attacked by people ... [snip!] ... I don't know if there is anyone else out there with with obsession, but if you're out there, hi, you are not alone. I am here."


Seriously,
You need to seek help. Not only the fact that your harming your body having so many, but also the fact that you feel you need to get pregnant so that you can have an abortion. I am not here to judge you on getting them because I to had one years ago. But think about when you are ready to start a family and you may have that urge to get one just because. Go and talk to someone to deal with your abortion addiction. I wish you well

JLMJRS Due December 23; Japan 1 posts
8th Jun '13
Quoting Helen C.:" There aren't many abortion forums out there that are protected. A lot of them get attacked by people ... [snip!] ... I don't know if there is anyone else out there with with obsession, but if you're out there, hi, you are not alone. I am here."



I'm sorry but this is the most disturbing thing i have EVER read in my entire life. I feel strongly against abortions and although i don't judge people that get them for a LEGIT reason like, being raped or being forced to, not having the ability to carry the child due to your body etc. but doing it has a "tradition" is just flat out wrong. SO many women in this world would give just about ANYTHING to be able to have a child and you are taking advantage of that ability and straight up abusing it. How would you feel if your mother had an abortion when she was pregnant with you, you wouldn't even exist right now. I don't think you understand how precious life is. and i HIGHLY HIGHLY suggest you seek some sort of help because something has to being going on inside for you to think this is okay enough to do it every single year.

Le_noir_rabbit 3 kids; Chattanooga, Tennessee 373 posts
9th Jun '13
Quoting Dovahkiin:" Yeah, I've had 24. "

Sarcasm in a serious discussion. Also that's not something to joke about.



Even though I am a pro-lifer I can understand what she (The Op) means when she is explaining her mental state and when it comes to describing her obsession.



She's getting a high off the "Holy shit I'm pregnant!" and then a calming, maybe even empowering satisfaction in having an abortion to subdue her situation.
Without putting any of my actual 2cents into it or expressing the way this
whole subject might make me feel.
I strongly agree that you should seek the help a Therapist or Your Religious
counselor. Talk to anyone you can trust, but you do need to talk to someone.
In my opinion I would also re-frame from sexual activity and relationships until
you are in control for your own mental/physical health.
Ps.. I'm not saying "hey your a nut job. I believe you have a serious health issue
that requires professional guidance.
Good luck.

Le_noir_rabbit 3 kids; Chattanooga, Tennessee 373 posts
11th Jun '13
Quoting Dovahkiin:" Kiss my fat white ass. "


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Dovahkiin 1 child; 1 angel baby; Kentucky 16776 posts
11th Jun '13
Quoting Le_noir_rabbit:" "


Come up with your own comebacks. :lol:

Sarah ♥ K&K 2 kids; South Land, CA, United States 118922 posts
status 11th Jun '13

Ok ladies, lets not forget why we're in here. For the OP

Chasityr62 Due November 20; Denham Springs, Louisiana 4 posts
20th Jun '13

It was the first one I felt needed to be said...do you always troll around talking crap??

Dovahkiin 1 child; 1 angel baby; Kentucky 16776 posts
20th Jun '13
Quoting Chasityr62:" It was the first one I felt needed to be said...do you always troll around talking crap??"


Yes.

oohlala Dallas, Texas 8 posts
23rd Jun '13

Interesting - just another angle here.



I'm not a mental health professional but I suffer from a few psychiatric conditions that I've been able to treat with professional help and learn a great deal about over the past few years.



When you do decide to seek help, do consider seeing a psychiatrist in addition to a therapist - it sounds like something may be happening physiologically that's causing you to crave a "high" associated with maybe the physical feeling of relief after the cramping, etc. is over. Almost like seeking the endorphins. This is a very eye-widening confession to read, but it doesn't really in theory sound THAT far off from the sensations the human body can feel or become addicted to with the acts of binging and purging.



Have you ever had your hormone levels checked when you are NOT pregnant? And do you have a history of anxiety, depression or thyroid problems?



I've taken anticonvulsants and antipsychotics to treat major depressive disorder and bipolar disorder along with an anxiety disorder (god, i sound really jacked up lol) and I'm AMAZED at what kind of cravings your body can produce when just one or two things in your system are off-kilter.



Topomax for example is actully used off-label as an appetite suppresant and to treat eating disorders, but when I briefly took it this switch went off in my brain that made me bullemic. The first time I purged I was at a restaurant with a friend, and I can't even explain what drove me to want to do it but I just felt like going to the bathroom and purging with a good, normal idea. I found a pen in my purse and forced myself to throw up, then came back out like nothing happened. I began to "like" this little secret that was all my own.



On another anticonvulsant I developed chronic, painful terrible constipation that doctors didn't believe couldn't be helped by dietary changes or water intake - I tried EVERYTHING. Eventually I started using stimulant laxatives and it was SO painful - but once the cramping stopped, I felt overwhelming sensations of relief and calm. much like the vomiting.



What you're describing about feeling lighter and better after the cramping, etc. is gone almost sounds like an endorphin thing, and I wonder if maybe your body/brain is naturally not producing enough of something that is making you seek this physical sensation of calm elsewhere.