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I miss you little man. Belle De Jour Due October 8 (boy); 2 kids; Kentucky 17885 posts
22nd May '13

26 days. In 26 days you will be 1.
I feel like the closer it gets to your birthday the more stressed out I feel. I was doing so good at being not so crazy. Yes, I'm still dealing with my own traumas of loosing you but I was really starting to get over that "hump".
But now that it's getting so close to your birthday it's getting harder and harder to deal with. Friday will be 3 months since the last time I saw you.
3 months that have felt like a life time and 3 months that seem to have flown by all at the same time.
You're Mommy and I have been getting better about talking to each other about you.
We finally went over the whole story of how it happened and how we both handled it. It was hard. But it was kinda nice to hear each other talk about our sides of the story, to know how each of us reacted.
We also shared stories of how we have been dealing with you not being here.



Most of the time I still don't understand. I don't understand how such a healthy and such a big 8 month old little boy could have died from SIDS. That's only supposed to happen to little babies :(
We had so many plans for you Isaac. And you did so much for our families. You brought together so many people who hadn't talked to each other in over 20 years.
How is it possible that such a young man did so much good and still it was not in the "plan" for you to leave so soon?



I'm coming to see you today. I think I may get you some flowers. Just please do me one favor? Look over your Mommy. She is still hurting so badly. And sometimes I really don't know what to do to help her because I'm still hurting myself.
We miss you Isaac. I wish I could just hold you one more time.



My sister just posted this picture of him. This is the morning that he died. It's kinda surreal to see him the day it happened. But then again it's kinda nice...



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He Who Must Not Be Named 2 kids; Whiskey Dick Mountain, WA, United States 59290 posts
22nd May '13

I am sending you and your sister love and the biggest damn hugs I can right now. <3<3

user banned 4 kids; Mueang Phuket, Thailand 30487 posts
22nd May '13

Oh wow,how sad, made me cry. :( happy birthday little guy ! I'm so very sorry for your families loss. Hugs.

MommyToWesley 1 child; Delaware 3847 posts
22nd May '13

I am so so sorry for your loss.
I remember reading your story when it happened and just crying. I can't begin to imagine the pain you and your sister are feeling, but I hope you know that he will always be looking over you and his cousins.
Stay strong, mama. *hugs*

Taryn - Anya's mommy 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Toronto, Ontario 49455 posts
22nd May '13

I am so very sorry for your loss!!

courtney ♡ 2 kids; Washington 16705 posts
22nd May '13

Awwww :(
I'm so sorry.
Hugs to you and your family.
He is a darling little guy <3

Belle De Jour Due October 8 (boy); 2 kids; Kentucky 17885 posts
22nd May '13

Thanks everyone. I got a call that my 2 year old was sick on the way to the cemetery :( So no visit with him today, which I guess is ok since it's about to pour down rain.
I might think about taking the girls to see him for the first time since he died this weekend. They may not understand what's going on but it will be good for them to go see him right?

~*CountryMom*~ 4 kids; Hopkinsville, KY, United States 1404 posts
22nd May '13

omg so sad my heart goes out to you and the family!!

7 blessings so far.... Due February 3; 6 kids; Glen Burnie, Maryland 8799 posts
22nd May '13
Quoting Uncle Obama's Banana:" Thanks everyone. I got a call that my 2 year old was sick on the way to the cemetery :( So no visit with ... [snip!] ... time since he died this weekend. They may not understand what's going on but it will be good for them to go see him right?"


how old are your children? when mine were small we'd take them to ''visit'' my dh's gramma. We made the cemetary a good place.....we would pack a little snack or picnic and and share stories about her , right on her grave plot.

Belle De Jour Due October 8 (boy); 2 kids; Kentucky 17885 posts
22nd May '13
Quoting 6 blessings so far....:" how old are your children? when mine were small we'd take them to ''visit'' my dh's gramma. We made ... [snip!] ... the cemetary a good place.....we would pack a little snack or picnic and and share stories about her , right on her grave plot."


They are 2 and 3. I don't know if the 2 year old quite remembers who he was but my 3 year old asks about him when she sees his picture.

Two Princesses 2 kids; Long Beach, CA, United States 7199 posts
22nd May '13

I've read your posts about what happened since it happened.
Very sorry for your loss momma.
R.I.P
I think it would be nice to take your girls to see hem and bring flowers, even if they aren't old enough to fully understand what happened to him yet.
Do you think something like grief counseling might help your sister?

Belle De Jour Due October 8 (boy); 2 kids; Kentucky 17885 posts
22nd May '13
Quoting Two Princesses:" I've read your posts about what happened since it happened. Very sorry for your loss momma. R.I.P I think ... [snip!] ... old enough to fully understand what happened to him yet. Do you think something like grief counseling might help your sister?"


She's already seeing a therapist for it. I think her emotions are just coming out in bursts and with her boyfriend being a dick it's probably making it harder.

laxmommy Japan 50 posts
22nd May '13

So incredibly sorry for your loss, honey. Bless you for being so strong especially on the days when it seems like the impossible. ((hugs))

Taryn - Anya's mommy 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Toronto, Ontario 49455 posts
22nd May '13

I just realized this was your nephew, not that it takes anything away from your loss, but how is your sister doing? I will continue to keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers

Belle De Jour Due October 8 (boy); 2 kids; Kentucky 17885 posts
22nd May '13
Quoting Taryn - Anya's mommy:" I just realized this was your nephew, not that it takes anything away from your loss, but how is your sister doing? I will continue to keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers"


She's still taking it hard (obviously). :( She has days where you would never know she was having a hard time dealing with it and then others where she just can't even deal with the world. Thankfully she calls me to comfort her when she's having the hard days. I wish I could take her pain away. I just don't even know how to start making her feel better.