His email, his information, his password. I have even been able to log into it and see the full messages. Yes I am 100% sure that it is his account.
It's cheating, I have always considered anything that has to be hidden from your partner cheating
then eff him! what a douche. That is 100% cheating. You need to leave his ass right away no question about it!
I am caught between feeling like I am losing him and wondering if he was ever mine to begin with. Because these messages from what I have seen go back to at least February, and we started dating in January...
I hate myself for believing he would be different. But most of all I hate myself because in spite of it all, I am still madly in love with him. I just feel completely betrayed, hurt, and lost right now, and don't know what to do.
I'm so sorry :(
Make an appointment with a Dr to address depression and how you feel. There are completely safe medications that can make you feel better and have a clearer more confident head to deal with all of this.
And honestly, if it were me there'd be nothing he could say to change what is happening. I'd leave quietly.
Quoting BG Secrets:" I am caught between feeling like I am losing him and wondering if he was ever mine to begin with. Because ... [snip!] ... all, I am still madly in love with him. I just feel completely betrayed, hurt, and lost right now, and don't know what to do."
OK, cut your ties girl :? You've only been dating since January and while I understand this has hit you were it hurts you need to cut your losses while you're early in the game.
The biggest downfall is he was my rock when my kids were gone. He kept me busy to where the time flew by quicker and I got them back.
Quoting BG Secrets:" The biggest downfall is he was my rock when my kids were gone. He kept me busy to where the time flew by quicker and I got them back. "
Yeah but when you are preoccupied he is beating it off to randoms on Skype :?
All you are doing is looking at how you need him but what you need to consider is what ways he has shown that he doesn't need you.
You're better than this. You need to depend on yourself for happiness because you will never let yourself down.
I guess that part wouldn't be so bad if I actually had something to do during the day. But I am currently out of school until August, I can't for the life of me find a job even though I turn in applications left and right, and call them back religiously all because of not having any experience. So I am just stuck at home in dead silence until my mom gets home from work, and lately even then I just want to hide in my room.