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I've made it so far... Forever in our hearts ; 16 kids; Iowa 10 posts
16th Jun '13

On the 14th I made an appointment to get a medicated abortion (pill abortion). I feel as if I am too young and not prepared for a child and my boyfriend supported me all the way through and still does. I as well have anxiety, depression and lots of stress with my living situation with my parents.



Since in my state you have to let one of your parents know 48 hours before an abortion I chose to do it out of state where they have no law regarding age or consent. I went with my two older sisters and boyfriend driving for almost 6 hours there. There were protesters outside of the planned parenthood and women yelling at you as you drive up the building. They had pamphlets, signs, and chairs awaiting for cars to come pass. Going to the building it was secured and needed your id to get in as well as get buzzed in. The waiting room was packed. Filled with girls and their friends, family and significant others next to them. I had to sign paperwork after paperwork, so nervous. I've never gone to the doctor without my mom. Finding out no one could come in the back with my literally made me want to turn around and run out. It seriously took hours and I didn't even take the first pill yet.



Of course they tried to get me to get on BC but I didn't do due to personal choices and be aware I am making sure I avoid this situation at all costs again. I eventually got the pill and was sent home (hours later). The drive back home 6 hours was feeling so long and miserable but I was glad I had my boyfriend at my side the whole time. The next day at 2 (yesterday afternoon) I put the 4 pills in my cheeks and waited. I slept and didn't bleed. Almost exactly 2 hours later the bleeding started. I went to dinner at Culver's with my sister, her boyfriend and my boyfriend and could barely eat a thing. I was passing clots but my dizziness was the worst. I went back to my sisters, took 2 hydrocoden. I all of a sudden, while telling my sisters boyfriend to throw my anti-nausea pills off the balcony down to me felt like a large clot was coming out of me. I rushed upstairs and sat down to find a clot and my fetus in my pad. I sat there with no words. I could see its legs and feet. I instantly yelled at my boyfriend to go get my purse out the bag. I had to take off the pad and put the fetus in the toilet. My boyfriend and sister both tried to ask about it but I made them stop. I was literally feeling sick to my stomach at the thought. The vision is still in my head. I am thankful I didn't see the upper part of its body from being covered. We headed to my other sisters too lay with her two new kittens. I was so dizzy from the painkillers I could barely keep my balance. I slept it off at my first sisters and once I woke up from my nap my mom called and told my sister I have to come home.



I woke up this morning with half my shorts soaked in blood and a large spot on my bed. It also bled into my brand new mattress, leaving a stain.



I feel sort of traumatized by seeing it. I seriously froze. Right now I'm cramping a lot and need to take more ibruprofen for my pain. It hurts knowing what I did but I do not regret it. I plan on getting a tattoo on my foot even though my sisters telling me not to get it. She says I am making it seem like a miscarriage and that it was my decision todo so. I still find it necessary. No matter what it is my first child even though I will never be able to hold it in my arms or kiss it goodnight. I may be a mother without a child but my child will never be without a mother.

Dovahkiin 1 child; 1 angel baby; Kentucky 16776 posts
16th Jun '13

How far along were you that you could visibly see the legs and torso? I didn't know they gave the abortion pill that late.

Forever in our hearts ; 16 kids; Iowa 10 posts
16th Jun '13

Sorry for any spellings mistakes. I'm on my phone it's acting up.



I forgot to mention. I was told I was 8 weeks and 3 days.

L&J ♥ +1 Due August 29; 2 kids; New Jersey 6116 posts
16th Jun '13

I'm really sorry. I had abortions myself. The last one I had I was really traumatized because the clinic I went to did an incomplete abortion. If you want a tattoo, than do it. Don't let others tell you what to do/feel.

Yurvette [♥] 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36449 posts
16th Jun '13
Quoting Forever in our hearts ;:" Sorry for any spellings mistakes. I'm on my phone it's acting up. I forgot to mention. I was told I was 8 weeks and 3 days."


I was 7 weeks when I had mine and I couldnt see anything. This is how big it is.. So you would have seen feet or hands.. Its just a blob at 8 weeks still.. Im not calling you a liar but these are the facts.
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Im sorry. I know its rough. I didnt want to go through mine, I litterally pulled any tissue out of my body and looked at it to see if I could see anything because I wanted to hold it.

Forever in our hearts ; 16 kids; Iowa 10 posts
17th Jun '13

At 8 weeks the fetus has developed toes and fingers. I could only see the feet curled up, the rest was covered with blood. It was still in it's sac.

Smokey_Taboo Due April 22; 1 child; California 5422 posts
18th Jun '13

Hun you should have probably stayed in one place and have people just bring you food and drink, lay down for the next two days you are gonna feel pretty crappy.. I know I sure did. I may or may not have been the fetus but at 8 weeks you can really see anything like arms and legs they are just a clumps of cells still. But clots can look really insane and big because you are shedding all your uterine wall. Please please please take it easy for a few days and dont over work yourself! It sounds like you have a great support team <3

HotMom21ERF Due December 17; 1 child; Kentucky 19590 posts
18th Jun '13
Quoting Yurvette [♥]:" I was 7 weeks when I had mine and I couldnt see anything. This is how big it is.. So you would have ... [snip!] ... I litterally pulled any tissue out of my body and looked at it to see if I could see anything because I wanted to hold it. "


I couldnt imagine..... you poor thing :(

deletedasdfghjjk 1 child; London, United Kingdom 994 posts
18th Jun '13

This just scared the crap out of me.. :( :( I just took my first pill of the abortion pill process and tomorrow is when Im supposed to start bleedingm i really hope i dont see mine like that. :/

HotMom21ERF Due December 17; 1 child; Kentucky 19590 posts
18th Jun '13
Quoting deletedasdfghjjk:" This just scared the crap out of me.. :( :( I just took my first pill of the abortion pill process and tomorrow is when Im supposed to start bleedingm i really hope i dont see mine like that. :/"

how far along are you? you most likely wont see anything but a clot hun.

Yurvette [♥] 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36449 posts
18th Jun '13
Quoting HotMom21ERF:" how far along are you? you most likely wont see anything but a clot hun."


This!
Trust us honey. You will see nothing. Its not that big or formed to see anything.

Yurvette [♥] 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Hyrule Castle, LZ, San Marino 36449 posts
18th Jun '13
Quoting HotMom21ERF:" I couldnt imagine..... you poor thing :("


:( Yeah... It was hard for me. But Im glad that I did it though.. It made everything easier in my mind.

Forever in our hearts ; 16 kids; Iowa 10 posts
19th Jun '13

I haven't been overworking myself at all. I do have to watch my 7 month old neice every day for 7 hours which is tiring.



Regarding to if I saw the fetus or not, I believe my own eyes. My sister said I should of taken a picture but that's just bizarre to me.



I can only take my hydrocodone at night since it makes me extremely dizzy & ibropeofen doesn't help so I have been in some pain lately. Good thing that this has never been unbearable even when I passed the fetus. I usually have heavy periods which extreme cramps so it's a regular period for me.



I have talked to two of my friends and told them everything. They are really supportive. One has gone through this as well and has been a help with simply venting to. I am still confident in my decision and don't regret it. The thought still hurts & I know it hurts my boyfriend but our relationship is nothing but stronger and this has brought us extremely closer.