Please tell me I am not the only mother who feels like this. I feel horrible saying it, but I really do. I want to just open the door and keep walking and leave everything behind me.
I feel like I can't do anything right. My toddler is driving me crazy by constantly whining/crying. Usually when he does this and I find myself getting tense, I go out for a drag. Now I quit smoking, I can't so I get aggravated and yell, which, in return, SO yells at me. :/
I spent the majority of the day locked in my room. I tried calling my doctor to schedule and appointment this morning about how I am feeling (believe it is mostly due to quitting smoking) and they havent bothered to call me back, so I won't be seen until later next week, probably. SO went and bought me and pack of cigs because he is saying I am being a bitch. I am already having a hard enough time trying to quit, for my health and LOs and I am so upset by him pretty much telling me to give up and smoke again. Maybe I should just go and smoke, I don't know.
I just feel like I have no interest in anything right now, especially being a mom. I feel so horrible. Can anyone relate? What helps you get out of this rut? I don't want to feel like this anymore.
I think you're right to call your doctor. And I'd call back until you reach someone. I think your husband is just probably desperate for any solution, and is acknowledging this isn't the normal you.
I've had days like this. We are human, and can only take so much.
Maybe go for a walk? It might calm you both down. <3
You CAN do it. Stay strong and keep trying to get a hold of the doctor. Your husband is just frustrated and probably isn't used to seeing you like this.
I had those moments too when I quit. I sometimes sat in the cold shower & pulled my hair while it was wet(not very hard)but because I felt like it was releasing tension slowly. I figured out that I smoked because I felt like I couldn't relax without it so I would still go outside but instead of lighting up a cigarette, I lit an incense. The smoke in the air helped trick my mind into calming down.
I've been there plenty of times, last week being the most recent.
I don't smoke, but on my most stressful days I seriously consider it. I don't really drink beer so even if I think I want a cold one, I'll probably spit it out.
So I just go for a run, usually up a hill, so then I'm pissed at the hill once I'm running up it lol
Hope you feel better hun *hugs
Thanks yall. Writing it out helped me a lot and made me understand more of where he was coming from. It, to me, was just him giving up on me, but I can see now that maybe he is just trying to help me.
We are about to go for a walk and since my doctors office is closed, I will just try to call or go in monday morning and pray they take me. I havent been in 2 years. :/ Maybe a nice bath will do me good when we get back. I love insence and just bought some nice Jasmine sticks the other day, so I will light them while I am bathing.
Thank you all again.
Quoting JessieLeeAnne:" Thanks yall. Writing it out helped me a lot and made me understand more of where he was coming from. ... [snip!] ... and just bought some nice Jasmine sticks the other day, so I will light them while I am bathing. Thank you all again. "
Stay strong, Hun. I hope things get better for ya. *hugs*
I know how you feel. We all have our stressful days. I agree with someone else..maybe try to go out..go on a walk or something. Maybe once your LO goes to bed take a bath to relax. It probably is because of the stress of quitting smoking..keep at it..it will eventually fade. My SO quit smoking once and he was such a dick all the time that I told him to go smoke too...i know i shouldn't have but i just wanted him to not be a dick.
I have days like this. I write in my journal and take a bath with only candlelight after my kids go to bed. It helps me so much to just relax and enjoy the quiet.
I feel your pain. I didn't even quit smoking and there are days where my son whines so much, and I just want to scream. You are right to call the doctor. Just realize days like these happen, especially adding the stress of quitting on top of it. I don't know if it is a phase but my son whines constantly, and it really does drive me nuts. Good luck mama! Call the doctor and see what they can do.