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I want to run away. Bad Things 1 child; Blacksburg, SC, United States 18491 posts
status 19th Jul '13

Please tell me I am not the only mother who feels like this. I feel horrible saying it, but I really do. I want to just open the door and keep walking and leave everything behind me.



I feel like I can't do anything right. My toddler is driving me crazy by constantly whining/crying. Usually when he does this and I find myself getting tense, I go out for a drag. Now I quit smoking, I can't so I get aggravated and yell, which, in return, SO yells at me. :/



I spent the majority of the day locked in my room. I tried calling my doctor to schedule and appointment this morning about how I am feeling (believe it is mostly due to quitting smoking) and they havent bothered to call me back, so I won't be seen until later next week, probably. SO went and bought me and pack of cigs because he is saying I am being a bitch. I am already having a hard enough time trying to quit, for my health and LOs and I am so upset by him pretty much telling me to give up and smoke again. Maybe I should just go and smoke, I don't know.



I just feel like I have no interest in anything right now, especially being a mom. I feel so horrible. Can anyone relate? What helps you get out of this rut? I don't want to feel like this anymore.

user banned TTC since Apr 2014; 2 kids; Middelfart, Denmark 15320 posts
19th Jul '13

I think you're right to call your doctor. And I'd call back until you reach someone. I think your husband is just probably desperate for any solution, and is acknowledging this isn't the normal you.

Always♥Faithful 2 kids; CHERRY POINT, North Carolina 21664 posts
19th Jul '13

I've had days like this. We are human, and can only take so much.



Maybe go for a walk? It might calm you both down. <3

Mrs.Gray♥ 48 kids; Corinth, Mississippi 1669 posts
19th Jul '13

You CAN do it. Stay strong and keep trying to get a hold of the doctor. Your husband is just frustrated and probably isn't used to seeing you like this.

~The Lunar Flower~ 2 kids; Alabama 6748 posts
19th Jul '13

I had those moments too when I quit. I sometimes sat in the cold shower & pulled my hair while it was wet(not very hard)but because I felt like it was releasing tension slowly. I figured out that I smoked because I felt like I couldn't relax without it so I would still go outside but instead of lighting up a cigarette, I lit an incense. The smoke in the air helped trick my mind into calming down.

Mari-C 18 kids; Nebraska 3695 posts
19th Jul '13

I've been there plenty of times, last week being the most recent.
I don't smoke, but on my most stressful days I seriously consider it. I don't really drink beer so even if I think I want a cold one, I'll probably spit it out.
So I just go for a run, usually up a hill, so then I'm pissed at the hill once I'm running up it lol

Hope you feel better hun *hugs

Bad Things 1 child; Blacksburg, SC, United States 18491 posts
status 19th Jul '13

Thanks yall. Writing it out helped me a lot and made me understand more of where he was coming from. It, to me, was just him giving up on me, but I can see now that maybe he is just trying to help me.



We are about to go for a walk and since my doctors office is closed, I will just try to call or go in monday morning and pray they take me. I havent been in 2 years. :/ Maybe a nice bath will do me good when we get back. I love insence and just bought some nice Jasmine sticks the other day, so I will light them while I am bathing.



Thank you all again.

Always♥Faithful 2 kids; CHERRY POINT, North Carolina 21664 posts
19th Jul '13
Quoting JessieLeeAnne:" Thanks yall. Writing it out helped me a lot and made me understand more of where he was coming from. ... [snip!] ... and just bought some nice Jasmine sticks the other day, so I will light them while I am bathing. Thank you all again. "


Stay strong, Hun. I hope things get better for ya. *hugs*

Crazyhazel89 1 child; Erie, Pennsylvania 3994 posts
19th Jul '13

I know how you feel. We all have our stressful days. I agree with someone else..maybe try to go out..go on a walk or something. Maybe once your LO goes to bed take a bath to relax. It probably is because of the stress of quitting smoking..keep at it..it will eventually fade. My SO quit smoking once and he was such a dick all the time that I told him to go smoke too...i know i shouldn't have but i just wanted him to not be a dick.

LA REINA™ New York, NY, United States 16429 posts
19th Jul '13

I have days like this. I write in my journal and take a bath with only candlelight after my kids go to bed. It helps me so much to just relax and enjoy the quiet.

MomDIA TTC since May 2008; 81 kids; Warminster, Pennsylvania 3812 posts
19th Jul '13

I feel your pain. I didn't even quit smoking and there are days where my son whines so much, and I just want to scream. You are right to call the doctor. Just realize days like these happen, especially adding the stress of quitting on top of it. I don't know if it is a phase but my son whines constantly, and it really does drive me nuts. Good luck mama! Call the doctor and see what they can do.