I hate all of these back and fourth emotions. I'll be fine and then it will hit me. I have a recording of a voice mail from Jake and I played it like a million times today. I miss his voice, and his hugs, and him going everywhere with me. I miss playing the "person place or thing game" when we were driving and his funny jokes. I get so effing mad at everything, I go over everything all day in my head. I can't talk about it IRL or I freak out and start having a panic attack so I have to write it down. I can't even look at his pictures. I feel so responsible, he was getting on my nerves so I'm the one who thought up him going to my parents for the weekend. I was supposed to get him on the day before but he talked me into another day. I didn't even get to be with my baby the day he died. I didn't get to kiss him one last time or hug him or tell him I love him. If you're getting sick of my posts I'm sorry but not gonna stop so you can just stop reading them or ignore me.
Screw anyone who would be getting sick of your posts, you need to let it out <3
I wish I had the magical words to make everything better, but I know I don't. And I know that nothing I say is going to help, but if you ever need to vent or anything, I'm here. I wish there was something more I could do.
I'm so sorry for your loss :(.
I'm so sorry, mama. I only got to be with my DD for the 5 months I was pregnant with her, I can't even imagine how you must be feeling. If you ever need to vent, I'm here. <3
I am so sorry sweetie. Keep posting that is what this forum is for. He is your son and you miss him and the heart ache will never go away. You need to talk so I say talk and talk some more, cry if you need too. I have never dealt with what you have but you can message me if you want.
Your posts are fine and a release. You need an outlet. If this is what helps then keep the posts coming.
Anyone who doesn't like that you're posting this can go ..well it'd be censored so I'll leave that out.
I am so sorry for your loss. I have seen your posts and I don't believe I have ever commented except to say I'm sorry. I don't know how it feels to lose a child but I can't even begin to imagine the pain you must be feeling. You should always be able to post whenever without feeling guilty. *hugs* Don't blame yourself.
Love, I know it's hard, but please remember it's not you're fault. (I know tat/s arder tan it seems). Tat guilt to feel tat way, will eat you up inside, and will not end well. Tere are a ton of wat if's, and feeling like ow fi you were to do someting different, it'd be all different today. You're strong, and I always ave an open ear. Let it out, anyway you are able to. <3 It elps. Write letters, talk to im. Do watever you need to <3
You never have to apologize for doing what is best for you. If this helps you in any way,then keep on! Forget about anyone that would give you a hard time for that.
I am so sorry that you lost your little man and the grief that you are feeling =[
I wish things like this never had to happen *hugs*
<blockquote><b>Quoting Juggernog-aholic:</b>" Screw anyone who would be getting sick of your posts, you need to let it out <3 I wish I had the ... [snip!] ... nothing I say is going to help, but if you ever need to vent or anything, I'm here. I wish there was something more I could do."</blockquote>
First off, you have NOTHING to be sorry for.
I don't have the words, I wish I did.
I know as well as everyone else, how much you love that boy, you have nothing to blame yourself for, you had no clue what was going to happen.
I love that VM though, hearing it was just too cute.
Love you Ash!
Hang in there, lady!
Quoting Ashlee♥:" First off, you have NOTHING to be sorry for. I don't have the words, I wish I did. I know as well as ... [snip!] ... no clue what was going to happen. I love that VM though, hearing it was just too cute. Love you Ash! Hang in there, lady!"
His voice was just so sweet and delicate. I miss him so much Ash.