Okay, really it's my fault for searching, but still. I was diagnosed with complete placenta previa 2 days ago. Now I can't stop searching. I'm searching info on c-sections, watching videos on youtube (NOT the best idea) and now today I'm finding happy stories about women who miraculously didn't have placenta previa at their final "just in case" ultrasounds before their c-sections. I seriously don't want to have a c-section. And I'm probably being unfair to myself by even reading that kind of stuff.
But honestly, I'm skeptical. (Or maybe just wishful thinking?) I'm supposed to have complete previa as diagnosed by u/s. I have not had any bleeding since I was 5 weeks pregnant. Nothing. I carried my kids around, I take care of all the housework, I have an active sex life.... but not a single drop of blood.
Also, I'm seeing a different doctor now. My previous doctor did THREE u/s and all 3 said that the previa was only marginal. It just touched the lip of my cervix. Now it's suddenly complete and central over my cervix? Does that happen?
Ugh. I'm obsessing and I can't stop. They told me I'd have the surgery at 37 weeks to prevent me going into labor and possibly bleeding to death. I am so scared that I'll have the c-section and they'll have misdiagnosed me or something, making it unnecessary. I'm just scared of the surgery period. I keep hearing that it'll be fine. It's not a big deal. Recovery is a little harder, but not much. That I should be happy that we'll be healthy and together.
Great, I get it. I know that placenta previa is a serious thing. We could both die if shit went bad. But that doesn't mean that I don't get to feel slighted or upset or scared. I have had 2 kids naturally. I got to be the first person to hold them and wipe them off and love on them. Every c-section video I watch, the nurses are rough and mom doesn't get to see baby until they're all clean and wrapped. She doesn't get to hold the baby until she's stitched up. I am not okay with that. I am not okay with the first touches my son feels being rough and unkind. I am not okay with not being the first person to hold my child. I am not okay with laying on a table helpless while my newborn baby is crying in a warmer.
Aside from all that, I am blindsided by the fact that a c-section is now my only option. That 7 weeks from my due date, I suddenly have no other choice than to be cut open. Which really, I only get 4 more weeks because of how they want to handle this. I have had no symptoms and suddenly I can't pick up my children because I might bleed. I can't be intimate with my SO. I'm supposed to "take it easy" and "realx". Neither of those are serious options for me now or after the surgery. I am a SAHM, I have no family in the area, and everyone of SO's family members has to work. They can't just take off and come down here to help.
Ugh. This is a lot longer than I intended it to be. Kudos if you made it this far. I am just so incredibly frustrated right now.
I've never been in your position before so I can't really give you any advice. But I feel for you. I would feel the same way if I was in your shoes. Maybe a second opinion? Whatever happens I wish you luck! *Hugs*
Oh dear! Dr. Google is up to his evil ways again.
First and foremost I am sorry that you are going through this :(
Secondly, stop Googling ....please! Google does not have all the answers things are exaggerated, incorrect of half a lie. Get all your information from your healthcare professionals!
Hang in there this too shall pass... best you can do is limit the stress. Start with stop googling :)