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I am in a weird place. [[Breezy]] 1 child; Savannah, Georgia 15615 posts
27th Mar

Just typing my scattered thoughts out to feel better.
I don't know what I want to do, and yet I want to do everything.
I am lazy, but bursting with ambition on the inside.
I am torn between really hating being stuck here at home all the time with not much to do, and not wanting to work because I don't want to have to put my 2.5 year old in daycare, because I don't want to be away from him and because I don't think that at this time he would do well with that.
I have a car now..it's been about a month, and that has helped get him and I out of the house to the park and wherever else we want to go during the week. I take him to eat and play at McDonald's once a week at least - how sad is that? There isn't much else to do around here though.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing. No substantial income. No savings. No plan.
If I decide to ever go to college, I don't know what for since I don't know what I want to do with my life.
I am plagued with anxiety daily thinking about what the hell we're going to do.
I'm just kind of miserable.




Elle&Cole⛄️ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Rio Rancho, NM, United States 25972 posts
27th Mar

What's his dad up to? I'd start out by getting a part time job. It will help you figure things out. It's hard to think straight when you're at home with your kid all day, ya know?

[[Breezy]] 1 child; Savannah, Georgia 15615 posts
27th Mar

Quoting Elliot Grace (14 weeks):
What's his dad up to? I'd start out by getting a part time job. It will help you figure things out. It's hard to think straight when you're at home with your kid all day, ya know?


Still in Atlanta trying to save up money, allegedly. That's probably not actually happening - the saving money part. I just don't think I can put him in daycare. I can't. My mom is cool with us being here indefinitely so that's why it's not really an issue - me making money, that is. 

Elle&Cole⛄️ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Rio Rancho, NM, United States 25972 posts
27th Mar

Quoting [[Breezy]]:

Still in Atlanta trying to save up money, allegedly. That's probably not actually happening - the saving money part. I just don't think I can put him in daycare. I can't. My mom is cool with us being here indefinitely so that's why it's not really an issue - me making money, that is. 


Can you work out a schedule with your mom where she can watch him a couple days a week while you waitress or something? Waitressingseriously 
opened my eyes up to the world lol. It sounds dumb but it's a hard job! And good money 

[[Breezy]] 1 child; Savannah, Georgia 15615 posts
27th Mar

Quoting Elliot Grace (14 weeks):

Can you work out a schedule with your mom where she can watch him a couple days a week while you waitress or something? Waitressingseriously 
opened my eyes up to the world lol. It sounds dumb but it's a hard job! And good money 


No she works full-time. And I know that's really all I've done as far as work since I was 16 lol. 

Elle&Cole⛄️ 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Rio Rancho, NM, United States 25972 posts
27th Mar

Quoting [[Breezy]]:

No she works full-time. And I know that's really all I've done as far as work since I was 16 lol. 


I know you don't want to do day care, but preschool is coming up! I think they'll love it 

Ellie Goulding 1 child; London, --, United Kingdom 4769 posts
27th Mar

Quoting Elliot Grace (14 weeks):

Can you work out a schedule with your mom where she can watch him a couple days a week while you waitress or something? Waitressingseriously 
opened my eyes up to the world lol. It sounds dumb but it's a hard job! And good money 


I was just going to say this. I've been a server for quite a while. I took like a year and a half off between being on bedrest and staying home with DS. As much as I love staying home with him, I realized I NEED some time away, talking to adults and being active and productive. And money is nice, too, of course.
Depending on what your mom's schedule is, you could try working just a couple of shifts a week somewhere while she's home. Serving shifts are usually really short, too, so that helps. I hope you get out of your rut soon. I can relate SO much to your OP- I was right there for a long time.

[[Breezy]] 1 child; Savannah, Georgia 15615 posts
27th Mar

Quoting Elliot Grace (14 weeks):

I know you don't want to do day care, but preschool is coming up! I think they'll love it 


I do think maybe I just need to chill until pre-school. I feel like I'm still recovering from our life when we became pregnant and kind of figuring out how to live a normal life again.  It's really hard, mentally. 

LOX❥ 1 child; wonderland, FL, United States 5627 posts
27th Mar

I'm right there with you, my son is almost one & I'm so scared to put him in daycare. I want to go back to work so bad after being out for a year but taking that first step just seems so hard so i know exactly how your feeling. Being at home though can make you feel so down on yourself sometimes though so maybe even working twice a week would be good for you. Your a single mother so I'm sure you can get some kind of financial/government help with daycare.

[[Breezy]] 1 child; Savannah, Georgia 15615 posts
27th Mar

Quoting The Great Deku Tree:

I was just going to say this. I've been a server for quite a while. I took like a year and a half off between being on bedrest and staying home with DS. As much as I love staying home with him, I realized I NEED some time away, talking to adults and being active and productive. And money is nice, too, of course.
Depending on what your mom's schedule is, you could try working just a couple of shifts a week somewhere while she's home. Serving shifts are usually really short, too, so that helps. I hope you get out of your rut soon. I can relate SO much to your OP- I was right there for a long time.



Yeah that's just impossible though - she works full-time so is only home on the weekends and she's 60 years old so she deserves the rest she gets on the weekend after working so hard all week. Thanks though..this rut sucks and it looks like there's no end in sight.