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April 12 , 2013- my miscarriage Babylove98 United States 36 posts
27th Mar

On march 18,2013 I found out I was gunna be your mommy. It was Easter and I really couldn't put my mind around the fact I was gunna have a little baby.. I knew that my body wasn't the same although everyone around me didn't know a thing. I only carried your for 5 weeks, but in those 5 weeks I knew I loved you more than anything . Your daddy was excited too. But I think he was worried about all of our futures more then anything. A couple weeks passed and I knew something was wrong.. On April 12, I lost you. I lost myself for a while. I didn't know how to feel or how to deal with knowing my own body failed and rejected something that was a part of me. I made myself think it wasn't true so that I could cope better . No one really knows how much you can love something so tiny and in such a short time but I got to experience it ♡ I couldn't be around babies.. It only reminded me of what I couldn't have . And a year later I've excepted it . God gave me a gift but soon took you back.  I'll never know why but it was a blessing in disguise . Your gone , but not forgotten. ♡ - mommy loves you angel 

Mannaa Due February 18; 2 angel babies; Bay Area, CA, United States 1686 posts
27th Mar

This is exactly how I feel:/ thank you for posting.

MistaWhite 2 kids; 1 angel baby; Backwoods, GA, United States 1102 posts
27th Mar

I lost my baby April 13, 2013. I wrote a letter to him too and it was very similar to this. Those feelings haven't gone away and I still cry sometimes. But I have accepted it and God has helped me heal. Thanks for posting. 

Babylove98 United States 36 posts
27th Mar

Quoting Mannaa:
This is exactly how I feel:/ thank you for posting.


It's really hard to get over . Honestly, I had I make myself believe I was NOT pregnant just because I could not deal with knowing I had miscarried . Now though, I know i was . And I've excepted it . I couldn't go around pregnant people or babies for the longest /: with time comes healing. 

Babylove98 United States 36 posts
27th Mar

Quoting MistaWhite:
I lost my baby April 13, 2013. I wrote a letter to him too and it was very similar to this. Those feelings haven't gone away and I still cry sometimes. But I have accepted it and God has helped me heal. Thanks for posting. 


Your welcome .  And it does hurt .. But eventually it gets a little easier . One thing is forsure after I mc I had baby fever like crazy.  I HAD TO HAVE A BABY.! But I knew that wasn't the right thing for me right now ! :/