I don't know what's going on with myself. 8 months ago I lost a close friend and its killing me tonight. My dad is sick and won't tell me what's wrong with him but he passes out for no reason out of the blue. And my mom is just plain mean tonight she told me " I need to get my shit together because I have done nothing but fucked up the last4 years". I am now working and doing work I like(horse) but it just doesn't seem good enough for her I honestly think she hates me at this point. I try to make her happy but nothing does it. She's been nasty toward my DD as well lately no clue as why she's only 4. My husband understands to an extent but I broke down and turned to drinking as a way out and I know it won't fix my problems. But the amount of hurt I feel right now I don't know what else to do.
Sorry I just had to vent