Quoting Yurvette [♥]:" lol. Yeah.. I mean I know Adrian doesnt really fully understand what happened, but he was there. I wish I had more to help you. lol. "Oh it's okay, no biggie. I had got to thinking earlier and was like, oh shit, in 5 1/2 years, there's a chance that my daughter will come looking for me. o_O
K will only be seven by then, so I wasn't sure if that's too young.
Hell, I don't know what i'm going to do if/when I do meet her and she asks about her birth dad. He was murdered last year.
Pure craziness going on in my head right now.
Quoting Yurvette [♥]:" I can imgaine. Adrian is on the other side he iswanting to go visit.. and Im not in that place to go visit ethan yet... :hugs: You know if you need to talk you can PM me any time <3 "Same to you!
I always wondered what it would have been like to have the option to visit. I don't think I would have been strong enough to do that.
Quoting Yurvette [♥]:" Right now Im still in the mindframe that I want him back. And I know I cant do it. I mean he is young enough that he wont remember if I came or not. "It has been almost 13 years, and I still feel like that from time to time. How long do you have the choice of visiting?
Quoting lmeredi3:" I'm really torn between two decisions.. I am currently 20 weeks with my first child. My boyfriend and ... [snip!] ... the same situation. I've been really down the past few days since we've had our main discussion on adoption/keeping the baby. "
Do what YOU want to do. If you dont know if you will be able to have another child, then keep the baby. Yes a child changes your life no matter if you keep it or adopt it out.
Quoting Elle With Three &1/2:" I'm 16 weeks, and have recently decided on adoption...I'm scared, I don't know how it works or what to ... [snip!] ... of lap I have to sit on shrinks. I don't know what to do or think....I just know I'm in no position to do this right now."
What part of Kansas are you in?
I love my own two kids more than anything in the world.. So I just don't know if I could not be too emotionally attached, or be able to not be judgmental on their parenting values or decisions. I feel like this is something that I really want to do, because I can't get the thought out of my head now.. I feel like this would be such a wonderful gift to give someone who knows they cannot have a child of their own. I just don't know if I could keep the mindset of me not being the mom or be able to see that child & not want to take it home with me. I don't know if I'm strong enough to do that....
So my daughter turned 13 on the fourth. It's crazy to think how things would be to have a teenager right now. I haven't received any photos/updates since she turned five. I wonder what she looks like now... Maybe in five years I will be able to find out. <3