Hello, my name is Emily and I'm 19 and gave birth to a beautiful baby g**l o* July 10th, 2008 at 4:18PM at the Good Samaritan Hospital in Colorado. She weighed 7 pounds, 15 ounces, and was 20 inches long at birth. She was born 12 days early, but she's a very healthy baby and I couldn't be happier! I consider myself very lucky! I am not with her father, which is perfectly fine with me since he decided to stop growing up some time ago. Sometimes I still get a little nervous, but I know everything will turn out just fine :) if you wanna chat, feel free to send me a message.
"Men are useless I swear".. well, they're good for one thing, they occasionally make some damningly cute babies! :) Rowan always wants to be held. I've spoiled her, I think, despite it not really being able to spoil a two month old. I'm gonna be in deep shit when she gets older. It's hard to hold her sometimes, I wanna eat! The "waa" with no tears, ya know, the really fake cry. Yeah, perfected. She's too good for her own self. I've decided I'll just castrate him with a pair of pliers and a blowtorch. He doesn't need to reproduce anymore. I'm hoping to god Rowan gets her brain from me, if she's anything remotely like her father, I'm fucked. He doesn't think. Right now, he wants me to meet him somewhere public tomorrow so he can see Rowan, and refuses to understand why I won't settle custody out of court. I was willing to at first, when we first discussed it, but he's broken too much trust and has not shown anything close to being responsible enough for Rowan, so I told him no. He should have realized before that he's fucked up way too many times, and I am sick of defending him. He needs to learn to get his own a*s together, and stop depending upon me to figure out his own life. I haven't even dated the kid in over a year, and he has been dating some other chick for like, 9 months, and he still comes to me for advice over things. Hell, I even lent him 20 bucks to buy HIS GIRLFRIEND a birthday present. Did I ever see it back? No. I gave him 100 bucks to get his car from the tow truck dude after it backed out of a parking spot and blocked traffic, did he pay me back? No. His father gave me the 100 dollars because he knew I needed it, and that douche bag wouldn't have ever given it to me.
Yeah, most likely. I would have told him to f**k off, but that's just me. :wink: How's Rowan doing? Rowan and I are fine, she's whining right now, haha. Sorry I didn't respond to ya earlier. I am nannying for a 4 year old and a 10 month old, so I've been busy today. My ex is pissed at me because I am bringing him to court, and won't settle outside of it. (I told him that he's blown way too many chances, and I am not going to continue to put my neck out for him.) He didn't like that too well. :) Bah, I forgot again about that message. I'll do it tonight when Rowan goes to bed, I promise. I gotta go and change Stinky next to me. Ciao! :)
Haha, yeah, a*s doesn't begin to describe him. Even his parents don't think he should get her! He's that ridiculous. And Dane needs to bite it. I'm glad that he at least came to see Rowan. How is he with her (now)? I would tell him that you need to see more than one day of willing to be responsible. It needs to happen more often, and frankly, should happen 100% of the time. He's a father now, and he needs to step up and become one. I'm glad you told him no, and that you think it's too soon.
Does she have gas? I play music for Rowan when she's really fussy (my music, not hers) and she calms down pretty quickly. I would do the cio for like, 5 min. tops. I see how she reacts over just 2-3 min. of crying when i don't hear her, and her face is horridly red & upset. The cause of 99% of my drama is my ex, haha. He's an a*s, as you know. He sent me a text message asking me to call him the other day (I hadn't talked to him in almost a month) saying "Is she healthy?" I didn't answer him, because I shouldn't have to tell him if she's healthy. He should be able to see her and see for himself, but he won't see her (I see his mother/father, so they know that she is healthy). Then he sent me a text asking me to call him to talk about somethings, and when I did call him, he didn't answer, and set me this text message- "To suggest somethings. And my mom and I would like you to have a talk with us and maybe my attorney just to make you understand what he told me today to explain what will happen in court. And maybe we can agree on something before court? I don't want the courts to choose our daughters future, but I do not want to push you to do anything you don't want to do. let me know." <b>Make</b> me understand? Puh-lease. So I just ignored his texts. Then he sent me an IM yesterday and asked if I was going to respond to him. I just told him that I will speak to him in court. Nothing will be decided until then. He got pissed and said "You said it would not come to this." I just told him that things change, and that I was going to bed, and not willing to speak further. Thinking back, I should have responded to him saying that he also said he would do anything for Rowan & myself. He was like "I start college in 2 days, a new job i plan on keeping, I straightened my life out so i can see her. But it means nothing to you." BS. He quit college the first week the first time he went. He won't stay at a job for longer than two months-quits (he's only worked at McDonald's 4x (most recent was two months ago, and lied about having said job when he quit, Little Caesar's & some factory for <b>ONE</b> day). He would still rather see his little gf than his daughter. Damn straight him saying that he straightened out his life means nothing to me. He's said that since I told him I was pregnant, and he has yet to show for it. Wow.. I wrote an essay. :) Sorry, haha. I just needed to vent.
Bah, I hate drama, haha. How's Rowan otherwise? I took some new pictures today, so I am hoping to post them tonight sometime. Oh, sorry I just remembered about that message I would send to you. I'll get on that ASAP, haha.
You didn't forget, there are still hours left in the day :) Thank you, though. I had a pretty good day, boring but good. How was your night out, & Rowan?
devineer I have 2 kids and live in Greeley, ColoradoAugust 28
I never been to Arvada but heard alot about it, I livedin, Loveland, and then Milliken... I miss it there it was so Peaceful, I plan to get back that way soon after the baby gets here LUCKY YOU!!!!
devineer I have 2 kids and live in Greeley, ColoradoAugust 27
I miss Colorado so much, is it still beautiful, what part!!!!!
Damn skippy. You can do it! There's no doubt in that. Rowan's lucky to have a good momma like you. Don't break down and let him back in unless he's for sure changed if he comes back begging. Do you have a cell/texting? I'll PM you my cell number so we can talk there too, especially if you have something you wanna vent about or vice versa :)
Oh wow, I'm so sorry! I hope he shapes up and stops being a douche. Even if he doesn't, you can do it! Us single mommy's are stronger than we give credit to ourselves for. Is he still living with you?
Well, that s***s. At least she's getting better. I know how you feel, sort of. I was depressed back in high school, so I know that dreading doom feeling, as for the PPD thing, not so much. I only cried once from feeling depressed after Rowan was born, it was the 2nd or 3rd night she was home, and I nearly kicked my own a*s for doing so. I wouldn't allow myself to get really low again, it took me too long to get back up before. Have you tried exercising & eating healthy? I've heard it helps regulate horomones, and the other chemical imbalances that can cause or contribute to PPD.
Babies like the vacuuming noise. I heard it reminds them of the womb, lol. Rowan sleeps though it usually too, unless it gets really close to her ear, then I think it scares her. We're doing well, she's sleeping right now, and I am thinking it sounds pretty damn well too. (She woke up at like, 2 this morning, and wouldn't go back to sleep until 4... and I ended up staying up the beg. of the night, so when she woke up, I hadn't gone to bed yet.) I just got my ears repierced... oh, 3 weeks ago? Go to walmart, if you have one. (I got my 2nd cart. done on both ears) it's cheap there- you only pay the price of the earrings, which I got mine for 5 bucks, vs. like Claires or something like that which is 40, lol. How are you guys doing? Does she still have her days & nights mixed up?