MamaGoneMad 30 Posts | Joined BG: Nov 08, 2010 Last Visit: 3 years ago
Gender Female
Status Married
Work Employed
Location Tacoma, Washington
Kids 17
Due Oct 16, 2011 (boy)
I JOINED THIS WEBSITE A FEW MONTHS AGO, BACK THEN I WAS DUE JULY 1ST 2011, IN MY 11TH WEEK I FOUND OUT I MISCARRIED. MY HEART WAS BROKE. I LAYED ON THE EXAM TABLE TRYING TO FIGHT THE TEARS WITH QUIVERING LIPS, TRYING TO BE STRONG AND CONVINCE MYSELF THAT OUR BABY WAS FINE. OUR BABY WAS NOT FINE, I LEARNED THAT OUR BABY STOPPED GROWING AT 6 WEEKS. MY HEART HASN'T HEALED, I THINK ABOUT OUR BABY MORE THAN ANYONE KNOWS, THE WORDS AND ACTIONS OF OTHERS ARE APPRECIATED, BUT NOT ENOUGH TO COMFORT THE HOLE IN MY HEART. I'VE BEEN TOLD I AM YOUNG AND CAN TRY AGAIN, BUT THE PAIN IS NOT SOMETHING I CAN MOVE ON FROM JUST YET, IT HURTS. I REMEMBER EVERY ARGUMENT I'VE HAD WHEN PREGNANT, EVERY BAD DECISION AND HAVE SOME GUILT. I AM A FIRM BELIEVER THAT GOD HAS REASONS FOR THINGS LIKE THIS, SO I ACCEPT IT AND PRAY THAT IT WAS A GOOD REASON. FOR NOW MY HEART, MIND, BODY AND SOUL IS HEALING.

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