I know I am going to get judged by admitting this, but I don't care. Yesterday my beautiful, perfect, and wonderful little baby was not being very perfect. My parents took my three boys to the zoo and I was very excited to just have one child. I was excited for a relaxing day full of binge-watching television shows, taking a nap and eating all of the junk food that I hide from my kids! It was going to be a great day. Well, things didn't go as planned My daughter decided that she was not going to be happy. No matter what I did, she was sad and crying. At one point she was screaming bloody murder and I didn't know what to do.
I have had three kids and so I know how to attempt to get a baby to stop crying. I obviously tried feeding her but no matter how much I fed her she was still extremely sad. I tried changing her diaper, changing her clothes, swaddling her, cuddling next to her and even tried putting her in the bathroom with the bathroom fan because sometimes she likes the white noise. I tried playing music, rocking her and I tried to put her in her swing to rock back and forth. I took her temperature and checked to see if she had any injuries that I wasn't seeing that was causing her to be in so much discomfort. I didn't know what to do and so I gave her some Tylenol. She was clearly upset and so I thought maybe she was in pain. After another half an hour or so she was still crying and I finally gave up. I laid her on my bed and turned on a Youtube nursery show and held it up in front of her and she stopped crying. She started kicking her little fit-out of excitement.
I took a deep breath for the first time in over 2 1/2 hours of pure crying! I held the phone up to her for about a half an hour and my baby was entranced. I know that there are so many studies and everything talking about how if my child is exposed to screens before they are two then they are going to have a lot of side effects or whatever. You know what? I don't feel an ounce of guilt for having my 3 months old watch 30 minutes of a show. I was dying and going crazy! Nobody knows true insanity until they can't get their baby to stop crying! So, you can judge all you want, but I feel no shame about it and will do it again!