I have always thought I was going to be a mother of all boys. I was very much a tom-boy growing up. Well, more like, I wanted to be a boy! So when I became a mother I knew that there was no way that I could raise a girl. I know very little about being a girl and I am pretty bad at being a girl. I have four children and I thought life was going just how it was supposed to when I had three boys in a row. Then when I was 12 weeks pregnant, I got the call that would change my life, "your blood tests came back and you are going to have a girl." I was shocked. I started to cry. I was crying out of excitement and worry.

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I shared my fears with those around me. I really do feel like my daughter would be better off with another mother but I am so glad she is part of my life. I am so excited to have a daughter and to have a built in best friend. But, she is only three months. There are a lot of things in growing up that being a girl is just much harder and there is so much pressure on me! I don't know if I can handle it. Right now though, having a girl is great. I have a little doll that I get to dress up in whatever I want. She doesn't quite have a personality yet and she doesn't have an opinion on what she wears. My daughter wears bows and always looks so cute. My mother in law came up to me and said, "and you were worried about having a girl." She says that because she thinks that since my daughter looks cute that I have a handle on raising a daughter. Raising a daughter goes way beyond being able to dress her up!

I want my daughter to be a strong woman who speaks her mind. I want to raise her to know that she can be anything and do anything. I want to raise her to not take any crap from this world and to fight to the top of her dreams. I am going to be the one she turns to when she goes through those awkward middle school and high school years. I am the one who is going to have to talk to her about boys and makeup. She is going to need me when she is confused about the world and I will need to be there when she doesn't quite understand some things. I am going to be there to answer her questions that she finds awkward and there will be a few weird conversions. Right now being a mother to a little girls is a peace of cake. She is simple, beautiful and she loves me. Raising a daughter is so much more than just putting her in a cute dress with matching shoes. I am still terrified about having a daughter!

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