Instagram influencers come from all walks of life and different spaces. There's beauty, fashion, gaming, and so much more. But one of the biggest and most popular groups of influencers is parenting. There are so many mommy bloggers who double as influencers, and they share their parenting adventures and mishaps in the hopes that others will relate. Some are tragic, others are funny, and more are just bittersweet.
In the case of Instagram influencer and mother of five Brenda Stearn, she recently explained how bittersweet it will feel for her to no longer breastfeed. This is something that, if you're a mom who breastfeeds, you might eventually feel this way. She uploaded a revealing yet touching Instagram post that had her breastfeeding her youngest son in an up-close and personal fashion.
"I have been looking forward to this moment for so long when I’ll finally have my breasts all to myself," Stearn wrote in the caption of her post. "I have been breastfeeding nonstop for over 8 years... including tandem nursing, and I have craved the days when I wouldn’t breastfeed, I’d dream about wearing whatever I wanted because for eight straight years I’ve wore what makes my breasts more accessible for my babies."
While her post may have begun happily enough, the tone soon took a turn for the somber. The influencer expressed how she'll miss the emotional connection that comes with breastfeeding. It's almost as if she feels awful that she'll have to stop breastfeeding one day.
"Now I’m not sure I want it, I’m not ready. I don’t feel ready to let go, to not be needed anymore," Stearn added. "I didn’t think it would be this hard. How do I get past the grief? Does it get better? I thought I would be celebrating this moment of weaning but I’m not celebrating, I’m grieving that this just might be one of the last times I’ll breastfeed."
Many Instagram users- both Stearn's followers and otherwise- tried to comfort the influencer by sharing how they felt when their breastfeeding journey ended for them. Such feelings include shame, guilt, and fear of losing the connection they'd built with their child. Stearn received a lot of kind words and tips on how to accept the end of breastfeeding. They also informed her that it will be an emotional adjustment that takes some time to get used to.
This scenario is something you will deal with it if you're currently in the midst of your breastfeeding journey. If you're either near the end of it or just recently stopped, you could very well experience the sadness that comes with not breastfeeding anymore. But just remember that while it may take time, this feeling will eventually pass.